Choosing sides (ON HOLD)

Chapter 20

CLARKES POV
Once we were sure that the coast was clear of one eyed monkeys, we were off, back to camp Jaha. We trudged through the woods together. Murphy's ankle had gone down and could hobble by himself now, Octavia still couldn't walk well on her own but she managed, off course bell helped her. I walked at the front of the group leading them back to the camp. The air was humid and the mucky ground was damp and made a strange squelchy noise whenever I walked. Squelch, squelch, squelch. After our hike through the soggy wood we made it back to the camp.
"Take, murphy and octavia to the med bay, I will fix them up before I leave" I say and walk away to fetch a bucket of water, some moonshine and some cloth. I can feel people staring at me, their eyes burning into me, judging me, they probably know about all of the things that I have done in the past who am I kidding every one knows about that. I grabbed the water and stormed off toward the med bay, let them stare ,see if I care. I entered the room to see murphy sitting off to the side on a chair, octavia lying down on one of the beds with a worried Bellamy hovering over her. I start with o. I walk over to her and unwrap her leg, thank god it a clear cut.
"This is going to sting" I say to her and press the moonshine drenched cloth onto the hole in her leg. In the corner of my eye i see Bellamy grab Octavias hand, they cling onto each other so tight, it makes me sad to think that I could of had that with someone if things were different, I might even of been able to have that with Bellamy. Snap out it Clarke! I mentally shout at myself and focus back on the task at hand
"Bellamy, sterilise that needle for me will you" I say to him. He nods and does as I ask, I continue sterilising Octavias leg as I don't want it to get infected, especially since I won't be around and yeah there are people from the ark that could probably deal with it but still. Bellamy returns with a freshly sterile needle and I get to work, threading it and then bit by bit sewing it into octavias leg, stitching the skin together. Once it's done and give it one last wipe with moonshine ,offer octavia and small Comforting smile and a pat on the shoulder, avoiding her brothers eyes at all costs. I move onto murphy, re wrap his ankle and then that's me. I guess it's time to face the music. But before I go I need to do something. I grab my backpack from the ground and walk up to Bellamy.
"Hey, can I speak to you?" I ask. He gives a quick glance to octavia then nods following me out the door and into the deserted hallway. Before he has a chance to ask me want I wanted I press my lips to his, he obviously kisses back. Then I pull back. His deep chocolatey eyes boring into mine, I know this sound really cheesy and cliche but when he looks at me its like he can see all of me, like he looks into my sole and sees the darkest parts of me.
"I thought you said it was one time thing only?" He questions me with that stupid smirk that makes my heart flutter.
"Well I couldn't go without saying a proper goodbye now Could i?"
"Definitely not" he says and pulls me in for another kiss. Once we finally break up.
"May we meet again" I whisper in his ear, turn on my heel and I'm off, heading toward possible death, towards my people.

BELLAMYS POV
I stand there kind of shocked, watching Clarke leave. Of course we will meet again our time is not up yet. We had hardly spoken two words to each other since our little incident this morning, I thought For sure she was going to cut me up into little bits and use me for reaper bait. Once Clarke has turned the corner and i can no longer see her I walk back into the med bay to check in octavia, she asleep. I pull a chair over to her, place my head on the table where she is sleeping and fall into a restless sleep full of images of people being tortured, and beaten, one face recurring in them more often than not. Clarkes.