Choosing sides (ON HOLD)

Chapter 18

BELLAMYS POV
I woke up to Clarke lying next to me, we fell asleep, her arm is draped over my chest and her head is using my arm as a pillow. I just look at her face, it's so beautiful, I run my thumb over her cheek avoiding her cut. Just then the hatch on the floor burst open and octavia pops her head in, oblivious to what was going on, but she realises soon enough, horror flooding her features. I instantly try and move to cover Clarke.
"Oh god my eyes, I am now mentally scared for life ahh" she shouts covering her eyes " I just came to say that I think monkey boy has given up and gone home, oh my god you are disgusting" and with that she slams the hatch awakening Clarke. She jumps, startled by the sound, it takes her a second to register her surroundings and then she jumps up, and throws on her clothes without saying a word to me.
"Come on Clarke, your seriously doing this?" I question her. Typical that was mine normal thing to do.
" Doing what?" She replies. That annoys me
" Your going to pretend that it never happened right"
"Yeah that's exactly what I'm going to do it was a one time thing, never going to happen again, and since when did Bellamy Blake start caring about girls, to be honest I thought you were the one night stand sorta guy anyway" oh no she didn't
"I used to be" I say, I stand up and throw on my trousers.
"Well then" she replies , she about to leave when I shout to her
"Clarke!"
"What!" She turns around and shouts back. I walk up to her and press my lips against hers, she kisses back and then pushes me away.
"Look at me in the eyes and tell me you don't feel anything" that's when she explodes.
"OF COUSE I FEEL SOMETHING BELL AND THATS THE PROBLEM, I FEEL TO MUCH, I CANT HAVE FEELINGS GETTING IN THE WAY, I NEED TO FOCUS AND NOT BE THINKING ABOUT YOU CONSTANTLY, I NEED TO BE THINKING ABOUT OUR FRIENDS IN MOUNT WEATHER, I NEED TO THINK ABOUT MY PEOPLE AND WHATS BEST FOR THEM!"
"Clarke..."
"No bell, it was a one time thing, it will not happen again" and with that she left. Well not really what I was expecting, but on the bright side she said she has feeling for me. Ha look at this, the great Bellamy Blake stressing over a girl. I really need to get a grip, become the Bellamy that had girls falling at his feet and had meaningless one night stands. That's the Bellamy I need to become again, I need to get over her, she clearly doesn't want me.