1 AM THOUGHTS.
Before,I was afraid of failure,I always told myself not to cry when things aren't working well,simply because crying is a sign of weakness.
I was afraid that I might disappoint those people around me,that's why I've done my every best just to please everyone.
I've been very harsh to myself to the point that I wanted me to be a perfection.Yes,I won't deny that the old me was afraid of critism and disappointment.I pressured myself so much that I didn't let my feelings have its entitlement,I was so insensitive.
But people always have something to say.Later then,I realized that,those times when I was so afraid of critism were also those times I was criticised.It was so funny that I was doing the best I can but still ended up being criticized,yet nobody dared to tell.
I still owe an apology to my previous self although it was very unforgivable.
Life really taught us lessons,and through this we mature and develop.And as we grow,we are introduced to a new perspective of life.
-Now,I am afraid of one thing.I am afraid of being numb.
Yes,I'm afraid that I can't no longer feel any pain or feelings anymore.It bleeds so much to the point that I got used to it.
Although it's a good thing,but I'm a f r a i d that I might felt u n g r a t e f u l of things to the point that I wouldn't be able to see the p o s i t i v e side of why it occured.
I'm still young yet life really taught me hard,the most interesting part is that life really taught me to handle my emotional aspects.
I know,some people might say that I might be over dramatic,but we have different life battles and we're also dealing it with different techniques and besides people always have anything to say to you.People hate achievements,people hate dramas,people hate happy moments,people hate everything.
What really matters are those people who's been so good and genuine to you since the beginning of your growth.
People always criticized,that's life.That's why, do everything you wanted to,not minding other's business as long as it makes you happy and it won't destroy you,then be it.It's about you,not them.
(May22,2021)
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LEFT UNHEARD
RandomThese were the whispers that were left unheard. For her voice were not so loud,so she whispered it and make a progress til anyone who seek it can find it. These will be the new book she bleeds in year 2021.
