My Song to You

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Naruto was taken to the hospital after what had happened, and he stayed there overnight. Sasuke had visited him as soon as he could since the school wouldn't let him leave willingly. Itachi and Kakashi had called the cops pretending something had happened at the strip club while they were celebrating a bachelor party. Iruka was devastated and didn't leave Naruto's side unless Kakashi had come by and forced him away. Naruto had been given lots of pain killers when he arrived, but right now he was staring off into space with Sasuke. It had taken the brunette three hours for Naruto to get used to seeing him.

Sasuke had been there since school let out and Iruka left with Kakashi to get food. The brunette held the blonde's hand and rubbed it with his thumb.  It took the young brunette the entire afternoon for Naruto to get used to his touch. He hadn't said a word to Naruto since he showed up. Naruto would squeeze his hand just when he was about to cry, and Sasuke would squeeze back since Naruto was terrified. Sasuke would sit there and listen to Naruto's crying making him angry with himself for being there, for not keeping his boyfriend safe like he had promised many times. He blamed himself for not being protective of his boyfriend. When Naruto calmed Sasuke would kiss his hand and whisper an apology to the blonde. The blonde would just fall back into a fit of tears.

"Naruto." Sasuke called out and brought the blonde's hand to his mouth before kissing it.

Naruto didn't say anything, just sat there against the pillows crying into his other hand not caring for the IVs or the cords to the heart monitor. Sasuke bit his lip and swallowed the lump in his throat. He wanted to make Naruto feel better, but he didn't know how to. He cursed himself for being such a coward. Sasuke sighed and looked to Naruto with love filled eyes.

"I love you, Naruto." Sasuke said kissing the hand over and over.

"How could you?! I was touched by someone else! They were in me, Sasuke! How can you even stand to look at me?! I'm dirty, a s-slut!! my body took in someone that wasn't you!! After we promised to do it after graduating!! I can't give you all of me now!  I can't make you happy now!" Naruto cried.

He had said these things before, and Sasuke just comforted him. Sasuke held the other's hands and fell silent again. Iruka came in with a cup of steaming coffee and handed it to Sasuke. The younger brunette thanked the older and they fell silent again. Naruto continued to cry, he threw his fists down on the bed in frustration. How could anything like that happen to him. Why him. Everything bad always happens to him. He kept these negative thoughts as he punched the pillow that was in his lap for his safety.

Iruka and Kakashi looked at one another before stepping out giving the two teen more time alone. Sasuke couldn't help when Naruto got like this. Last time he did a nurse had to bandage his arm. Instead, he just sat there watching his boyfriend have a fit. It just broke him. Watching Naruto fight himself over something he couldn't control. Biting his lower lip Sasuke took the chance. He grabbed Naruto's arms and pinned them to the bed. Naruto fought against his restraints trying to headbutt Sasuke off of him. 

All Naruto could think of was the men who had pinned him down. He screamed and cried begging to be let go. Sasuke pulled away just before Naruto headbutted him again but didn't let his arms go.

"Open your eyes! It's me, not them!" He growled in Naruto's face.

Naruto continued to cry as he opened his eyes. In front of him was his boyfriend whom he was angry at. Why would he keep touching me if I'm dirty and used. Why is he still here? I'm no good now, I'm not able to make him happy now. I'm useless. Used and thrown to the trash. I belong in a grave. Naruto thought as he stared at Sasuke. Sasuke sighed and loosened his grip on Naruto's arms as Iruka and Kakashi came in. 

"I'm here now. I'm sorry I wasn't there like I promised. Please, kitsu. I l-love you." Sasuke whispered just low enough for Naruto only, "I'm not going anywhere. I'm here. I want you. I can't be with anyone but you." Sasuke continued.

Naruto's eyes grew dark and filled with anger, "I don't want someone who can't protect me." He spat.

Sasuke's breath hitched in his throat; he let go of Naruto's arms and sat down in the chair beside the bed. Kakashi and Iruka walked up to them. Iruka soothing Naruto and Kakashi patting Sasuke's back.

"Come with me." Kakashi nudged Sasuke who automatically stood up.

The two walked out the room closing the door behind them. Kakashi pulled out a packet of gum and held it out to Sasuke who denied the offer. Kakashi didn't say anything as he popped a piece into his mouth and started walking down the hall. Sasuke didn't follow at first but until Kakashi called out to him. He fell into step with the silver-haired man.

"I know this is a tough time for both of you. But I think it'd be better if you just gave Naruto some time. Alone, with his family." Kakashi started as he turned a corner and nearly bumping into a blue skinned doctor with gills. 

"Sorry, pardon us," Kakashi smiled with his eyes as he sidestepped the man. 

"I don't want to be away from him. I failed him already; I need to be with him." Sasuke protested against Kakashi's words.

"I get that. The things that happened to him were traumatic. Very traumatic. I think with a little time between the two of you it'd do some good. I'm not saying months or years. I'm just saying give it a few days or weeks. He knows you love him, but he needs time to collect himself. Not for your sake or mine or Iruka's, but for his own. He's broken right now, lost, he just needs time alone to find himself again. And when he's ready he'll talk to you." Kakashi said as he opened the door to the garden letting Sasuke step in first.

The garden was really just a rectangular area that the hospital was built around. there was a massive tree in the center. with a cobblestone path in each direction of the main buildings around it. They walked in silence until the got to a wooden bench and sat down. 

"I don't want to wait. I'll help him piece himself back together if I have to." Sasuke said determined to stay beside Naruto.

Kakashi scoffed and pushed Sasuke's head down, "Look kid, I'm trying to protect my son and you from further hurting yourselves. If that means I ban your ass form coming to my house, then deal with it. If I gotta kick your ass in order for it to sink into your thick skull I will. Just calm yourself and think. Naruto just had a something horrible happen to him, do you think he'd want someone there that'll only remind him of the shit he can't give or do anymore?" Kakashi sighed and let go of Sasuke.

They sat in silence again. It was peaceful in the garden. Small insects flew by, the sound of the leaves swooshing in the wind could all be calming. Sasuke sighed heavily and leaned against hte backrest of the bench.

"I just want him to know I'll accept him. I don't care if he's a virgin. Hell, I wouldn't care if he became trans and wanted to be a girl. So long as it's still him. I don't care if I have to give up any part of me. Let him beat me, kick me, hurt me, anything so long as I'm still with him." Sasuke choked out.

Kakashi hummed his reply and sat in silence as Sasuke fought his urge to just get up and go back to Naruto. Iruka walked up to them with a sad smile. Kakashi held out his hand to his lover. They looked at each other with so much love Sasuke almost puked if it weren't for the thought of wanting that with Naruto.

"He fell asleep. The doctor said it's best we keep him here for another night in case he has an attack." Iruka's voice whispered. 

He must have been crying in the room with Naruto because his voice was so raspy. Kakashi stood and held Iruka close. The three of them swore to themselves they'd protect Naruto at all costs in silence. 

"Let's get you home. Itachi has been wondering when you'd get back." Iruka smiled with sad eyes.

Nodding Sasuke followed them out of the hospital.