"Thanks Juan." I mumble closing the car door, Juan pokes his head out of the window "Are you sure your okay Rayyana?" I just nodded and walked away.
I opened the door and closed it with my feet, I took off my shoes and tiredly sat down on the sofa. The door opened and I looked over to see Rabia.
"Where were you Rayyana? I called you like a dozen times!" I didn't say anything not really feeling in the mood to talk... or to live.
She sat down beside me "Rayyana?" I knew if I opened my mouth I would burst out crying. I don't know why I was like this, I knew damn well that me and Asad were never going to get together.
Maybe I'm moody because my period is coming? No... I already got mine this month.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and I felt the water works coming "Rayyana?" Rabia's voice was loser then a whisper, almost not heard. I couldn't take it anymore, I sniffled and hugged her tightly.
"I can't do this anymore." I mumbled into her shirt my cries getting louder by each passing second.
Rabia said nothing as I ranted to her about my horrible life and cried in her arms. After a good 20 minutes I sat up and looked at Rabia to see she was crying too.
"Rayyana, you should leave him." I shook my head. No matter how tempting that sounds I couldn't. If I did, I would be even more sad then before.
Rabia and I changed the subject, she told me that Sabha was getting better and soon they would leave back for Pakistan. Something about that made me more sad but I didn't show it to Rabia who already was sad.
She told me that Soojin was thinking of going early now that she knows Sabha's okay. "Can we go see her?" Rabia agreed and we left to the hotel.
"How are you now Soojin?" I asked hugging her, she hugged me back but it was more frigid. "Yeah, I'm fine." She mumbled and grabbed her purse. "Where are you going?" Rabia asked her "Downstairs, it's lunch time."
We nodded and followed her down to the dining area of the hotel, I looked around at all the food and realized nothing was halal there besides the fruit and fries.
"Soojin... there's noth-" I trailed off when I saw Soojin pick up a BLT sandwich, and she picked up some candy and fries.
She sat down at a table and I watched in horror as she took a big bite of the BLT. I ran over to her and yelled "Soojin, put that down! your eating bacon!" Soojin just shrugged and continued eating until the whole burger was finished.
"W-what?" I asked confused as she just took the candy that was 100% haram and ate the whole packet. "It's okay Rayyana." I looked over at Rabia who was silent.
"Okay? Your eating things we are not allowed to eat!" Why wasn't Rabia stopping her? "Rayyana..." Rabia started but trailed off "I'm converting." Soojin finished for her.
My eyes widened as I stared at her "WHAT?" I ended up yelling. Soojin finished her fries and threw away everything into the trash. She motioned for us to follow her and soon we were at a park that had 2 kids playing while a little bit far away from them were some adults sitting down on a blanket probably having a picnic.
"Islam isn't for me Rayyana, ALLAH wasn't there for me and my brother, he let him leave me. He made me hurt by writing all this down in my life book. And I don't like the Hijab anymore. What's the point? Guys still look at me."
Hearing all this coming from a girl who inspired me to keep on praying when my parent's passed, the girl who had helped me revise the Quran 10+ times is now telling me she wanted to leave Islam.
