STARING AT THE SUN
CHAPTER 14
BELLA P.O.V
Halloween was a crazy time in college I learned. Most dorms were decorated in Halloween stuff. Frats went all out and made mazes in their house. So, I forced Jacob to come to campus so we could party with everyone else. He dragged Jared and Quil with him.
I held his hand as we stood in line waiting to get into one of the haunted houses. I loved having him here. We had both been working really hard on our relationship. I was still trying to give him space. I would text him in the morning. Sometimes he would call, other times he would text back. But I made sure every morning and every night I texted him. I sometimes didn't get a response but knew that he had asked for space. I just didn't realize that it would be over a month.
As we got closer to the front of the line I started to get anxious.
"Dude you're jacked as shit." The guy who was letting people in said to Jacob. He looked Jacob up and down and looked at me, who's hand was still in Jacob's. "Theres no way." He said looking between us.
"What?" I asked.
"There's no way you two are together." He said.
"We aren't." Jacob answered. I looked up at him. I guess we never really discussed getting back together. We were still working through our shit. We both knew that. But those words hurt almost as much as our breakup did. We walked through the haunted house. I swear I screamed more than anyone else.
Eventually we made our way to a frat that was just throwing a party. We all walked in together but I quickly got lost in the crowd. I saw a few people I knew from my classes but didn't really want to talk to them. I eventually found Quil in the kitchen talking to a girl.
"Have you seen Jake?" I asked.
"He went out back with Embry." I walked out the back door to find Jacob playing beer pong. I stood off to the side watching him. They did decent. Jacob then chugged two beers. I wondered how bad he was taking this breakup. Or how bad he was handling us not being together apparently.
I followed him around as he mingled with everyone, drank as much as he possibly could, and smoked at least two blunts. Somehow he was able to walk beside me to my dorm room. Embry, Quil and Jared had left before us so they were most likely already back at the dorm.
"You drank a lot." I commented as we walked. We still had a good twenty minutes before we got back to the dorm.
"And?" He said.
"You're 17. We could get in trouble." I answered.
"No one here cares. And no one is gonna think I'm 17." I guess that was true.
"Just seemed a little excessive is all."
"Why does it even matter?!" He shouted at me. "You're always up my ass about everything! You're not my mom." I was shocked at just how mad he was at me. I had been trying so hard to get us back to where we were. I just looked at him as he was fuming. "You're just as bad as my dad." I continued to walk as he ranted. I then realized that this break wasn't so I could figure out my life, it was so he could. And he wasn't doing a good job at it. My heart was hurting. I wrapped my arms around myself to keep myself together. "You're so annoying."
I quickly wiped the tears that fell from my eyes. I couldn't tell if he was being serious or if it was just the alcohol talking. He was talking to me like I was one of his buddies. And maybe I was. But I didn't look at him as one of my friends anymore. He was the love of my life. He had no idea just how much he meant to me.
