STARING AT THE SUN
CHAPTER 4
BELLA P.O.V
"Mom? Are you there?" I said into the phone. I had finally got the yes from Jacob and we were both planning to go to Florida for a weekend away to see my mom.
"I'm here, Honey. How are you?"
"I'm good. I had a question." I said. I don't know why I was nervous to ask her. My friendship with Jacob had changed over the last week since we kissed. There were a lot more shared kisses between us. I guess I was worried about someone finding out. If my dad knew what was going on between Jake and I he would never let us go visit her.
"Anything."
"Do you remember Jacob Black? Billy Black's son?"
"I know the name." She confirmed.
"Well I was wondering if Jake and I could come visit for a weekend?" I asked. "We were thinking two weeks from Friday." I confirmed the dates while looking at the calendar that we had hanging in the kitchen next to the phone.
"I would love that!" She shouted. "That would be great! I think you both would have a wonderful time."
"Oh awesome." I smiled. "So we're going to fly down Friday night and then leave Monday night."
"Where did you get the tickets?" She questioned.
"Esme and Carlisle bought them for my birthday." I answered. "I never used them but I figured Jacob needed a break from his everyday life." I shrugged even though I knew she couldn't see me. And it was true, Jacob did deserve a break. I think getting out of town and going on vacation together would be good for both of us.
"I would love to see you both. We'll pick you up from the airport."
"That would be great." I answered. "Thank you."
"So, Jake huh? Is something going on with you guys?" She asked making me blush. I tried to stamper out a response but she laughed before I could. "Do you like him?" I hadn't even admitted it to myself yet why was I going to tell my mother that I liked him?
"I have... Feelings for him." I said. "God, I feel like a 12 year old who has a crush on her best friend."
"How does he feel about you?"
"Mutual. He's made his feelings clear. I haven't told him anything yet." I was probably going to keep this to myself for a little while longer. As much as I liked Jacob I don't think I was ready to jump into a new relationship. I also didn't want to ruin our friendship. "And please don't say anything when we come to visit. Let me handle this."
"Bella, it's okay to move on." She said softly. "If Jake makes you happy and you want to be with him, don't let past events stop you." I sighed. It was a lot more complicated than people were making it. I didn't want to ruin our friendship and I did not want to hurt Jacob in anyway. "You don't have to feel guilty about being happy."
"He does make me happy." I commented. "I just don't know if I'm ready to take it to the next step."
"That's okay. But if he's in it for the long run, if he wants to be there to help you, I think it would be a good thing for you."
"I think it would be an awesome thing but like I said. I want to wait."
"I'll support you either way. You make the decisions on how fast you move in this life. Some people need that extra time and there's nothing wrong with it. Jake is also younger than you, there's no rush to do anything."
