STARING AT THE SUN
CHAPTER 21
BELLA P.O.V
I decided I needed a vacation. Jacob also agreed and Charlie decided that he wanted in on it too. So we decided to make it a family affair. Billy was also coming, along with Rachel and Paul. Of course Charlie couldn't do anything without Sue, so Seth was coming. Sam was not happy about losing 3 vital member's of the pack but he wasn't going to say no to me.
We had all decided that we would go to Hawaii to see Leah. I was more than excited to see her and get to sit on the beach and enjoy the warm weather. We had bought tickets and got a few rooms booked in some fancy hotel. Of course, I used the money that the Cullen's had been sending me. I couldn't figure out how to stop the payments from coming. I shared it as much as I could but Jacob convinced me to use some of it on myself. So a vacation it was. I hadn't been on one since I went to see my mom with Jake but I hadn't been on one with Charlie since I was little. It was long overdue.
Rachel had decided to take me shopping after she realized that I only had one bathing suit and it was a one piece which was all black. She insisted that I needed a bikini. She said that Jacob should be drooling over me in a bathing suit. As if this wasn't a family vacation.
So here I was, in the dressing room wearing a lilac bikini and freezing cold. She was in the one beside me trying on a blue one. I liked it, it looked good, but I wasn't sure about it. It wasn't me. We both knew that. As much as Jacob would like it, I wasn't so sure our fathers would.
"I'm not too sure about this, Rach." My voice shook when I spoke. I wrapped my arms around myself trying to get some type of body heat. If only Jacob wasn't at work.
"Come out. Let me see." I loved the lace on the top but I felt so exposed. I felt like my butt wasn't fully covered. I felt like my boob was going to fall out of the top. I slowly opened the door and stood in front of her. "It looks amazing!"
"My butt is hanging out."
"Most bikinis are like that." She answered. "We can find a bottom that you'll like more." I rushed back into the changing room and grabbed the next one. I already hated it. There were too many strings. I knew I shouldn't have let her pick anything out for me. I know that it was going to end badly.
"I can't do this." I said mostly to myself. I wasn't sure if Rachel could hear it or not but I swear I was going to pass out in here. Jacob had seen me in much less than these bathing suits but my father hadn't. It's not like he could stop me from doing what I wanted but I was still terrified of it. I didn't even bother trying on the ones with string, I would not be buying it let alone wearing it. I would get the purple top but I wanted bottoms that actually covered my butt. So I grabbed the purple top and headed out to find new bottoms.
I found high rise bottoms in the same color and quickly went off to buy them before Rachel saw and before I could talk myself out of it. I would be buying a cover up either way but not here. Just the bathing suit top was $30.
"What did you buy?" She asked as she met me at the checkout.
"The purple one." I answered. She didn't need to know that I changed out the bottoms. Either way I was going to wear what I wanted. We had already bought a few pair of shorts and a few tank tops. I also grabbed Jacob a few pair of shorts and a bathing suit knowing that he wouldn't buy any for himself. I was exhausted. I could only shop so much. Rachel could shop until she dropped.
Thankfully Paul called. I never thought I would be so thankful for Paul. I was silently thanking him as we headed back to her car with all of our bags. She dropped me off at home and then headed home. Jacob was already here, having a beer and watching some baseball game with Charlie.
