STARING AT THE SUN
CHAPTER 17
BELLA P.O.V
I was terrified. It had been a week since I was back at school, and my period was late. I was pacing in the dorm room waiting for Maia to come back with a pregnancy test. I was worried last week when it was a day late. Now, it's been a week. And I've been trying to avoid telling Jacob.
The first person I called was Leah. If anyone was going to be able to talk me off a ledge, it would be here. Of course she also said exactly what was on her mind.
"I thought you were protecting yourselves?" She asked.
"For the most part we do." I was chewing on my thumb nail as we talked. Of course there were a few times we didn't use condoms but I thought we were protected enough on my end to not worry about it.
"Bella, what are you going to do?" She asked. I had never been so nervous in my entire life. We were no where near ready to be parents. My dad would be so disappointed in me. Of course my mom would make the most of the situation.
"I don't know." I sighed.
"I mean, Jake would make a really good dad but he's so young." I sighed again. I knew she was right. I just had no idea what to do. "You need to take a pregnancy test." She said.
"My roommate just ran out to buy one for me." I answered. "I'm praying to god that it's negative."
"Have you told him yet?" She asked.
"No. I figured I would tell him after I take the test." I was second guessing myself. Should I call him and tell him or just wait until after I take the test?
"That's probably a good idea. Don't get him stressed out if he doesn't need to be." She was such a good friend. I didn't deserve her.
"Did this ever happen with you and Sam?" I asked.
"Yeah. Just once. Scared the crap out of him." She trailed off. "And now here we are so." Now I was panicking that this would lead to us breaking up again and I really didn't want that.
"Maybe I should just keep this to myself so he doesn't break up with me again."
"Bella, he won't break up with you. Just be honest with him." I was so anxious that he was going to abandon me. I didn't want him to leave me over something that could have easily been prevented. "You have to get it out of your head that ever time something goes wrong, that he's going to leave you. He loves you." I knew she was right. I knew it something that I needed work on. At the end of the day, Jacob was here and he did love me. He just wanted what was best for me.
"I just have abandonment issues." I whispered.
"I know you do but no matter what, Jacob isn't going to let you go through this alone." I could hear shouting in the background.
"Thank you for talking to me."
"Let me know how it goes." She said.
"I will. Bye."
"Bye." And with that she hung up and I was left on my own spiraling worried that he was going to leave me. He could easily leave me. He could easily abandon me with a baby and never look back. Of course I'm sure his father would step him and make him help me but I would never force that on him.
Maia came in the door and quickly shut it behind her before pouring out an entire bag of pregnancy tests.
"What happened to one?" I asked.
