Spotlight Girl //a Jeremy Jordan Fanfic//

Julia's Diary (#4)

28th August 2002

Dear Diary,

I'm freaking out!

Something big happened a few weeks ago, after Jeremy's last visit, and I need to tell someone about it or else I might just burst into flames!

His visits are becoming less frequent than they used to be, mainly because of college and his new job taking up a lot of his time, but we still email frequently and he calls at least once a week, but this visit was just so special this time...

Jeremy was staying with us, as he usually did when he came over, and we had just finished school for the summer, so my entire class was heading down to the beach for a big barbeque/bonfire party to celebrate. I invited Jeremy down to meet everyone and my friends pulled me to one side to tell me how handsome and charming he was, which made me blush like crazy but I couldn't disagree.

One of the older boys in our class had brought a case of beers and spritzers for everyone and one of the girls brought a stereo. We were all dancing and drinking and laughing and just having a great time, that's when someone cut the music and announced live music be played by the theatre kids and musicians in the class. 

All my friends from the theatre department turned to me and I just shook my head as they continued to beg and plead and push me towards the centre of the circle we were all standing in. Emily, one of my best friends, hands me my Ukulele and eggs me on with the rest of the class.

I hate being put on the spot like this and I just stand there awkwardly like a lump, feeling my cheeks heat up like crazy, but when I look up at Jeremy he's giving me a subtle thumbs up and mouthing "You got this!" with a little grin on his face.

Smiling back at him, I strap my ukulele up and around my neck and begin tuning it a little. There was a song I'd been working on, but I was waiting until Jeremy's birthday to play it for him, but I guess I had no choice out of this so...I began strumming the opening chords.

As I strum and sing this song I've worked so hard on, my eyes focus on Jeremy, who's bobbing along, the sun reflecting back at me in his eyes and I find it hard to focus on much else. My heart skipped a beat every time I looked at him, my knees felt weak every time he smiled at me, I'm honestly surprised I got through the song without messing up or tripping over my own tongue!

I finish the song with a round of applause and cheering and Jeremy sweeping me off my feet and kissing me! Right there in front of everyone!

It felt so magical, so wonderful, I replay the moment over and over  in my head and I can't help but smile. Then a few more people in my class sing, some really good musicians play live music for us and we continue to drink and party into the night.

I'm very much drunk by the time the night is nearing its end, so Jeremy decides its best if we walk back home. I decide I don't want the night to end so soon and take him the long way up the beach.

Jeremy held onto me by the waist and tried his best to lead me in a straight line down the beach. Not being very coordinated at the time, I find myself  losing balance and falling into the ocean, pulling Jeremy down with me!

We're both in a fit of giggles as the tide comes in and crashes into us. In this frenzied mess, the corners of my vision blur and without thinking about it, I kiss Jeremy rather aggressively and Jeremy, being just as drunk as I was, kissed back with just as much aggression. 

The kissing soon turned into more than that and before either of us knew it...well, let's just say, we both lost a substantial amount of clothing within those waters...

As far as first times go, that one was one to remember.

We made it home in one piece and no one was non the wiser about what happened between the two of us...then my period was late.

It's been several weeks since that happened and I still haven't had my period and I'm freaking out! I've been too scared to go out and by a pregnancy test, just in case the word goes around and ends up with my parents, or tell anyone about it, not  Alice, or Adam...not even Jeremy.

Oh I wish I knew what to do right now...I need some sort of guidance.

I'm getting to the bottom of this one way or another. I'm going to tell Alice, she's my big sister and big sisters always know what to do!

Wish me luck Diary.

With love,

Julia x