My Little Secret

Chapter 6

I had the chance to tell Alexander that he was Pips father and I didn't. I don't know how to approach the situation I just know that he'll never forgive me. It makes my heart hurt because I know he deserves to know that he's a father.

After the dinner Alexander dropped me off at my house and I couldn't help but cry. The tears were forming without my permission but why am I surprised this is just another situation that I can't control. I hate myself for not telling Alexander that I was carrying his child before he left. This could've all been avoided if I told him we were expecting maybe he wouldn't of left. Maybe he would've but honestly I don't care because this would've been dealt with already.

Philip he is the one I'm most worried about he's always talking about his father but would he be able to adapt to Alexander if he were to live with us. What if Alexander wants nothing to do with his son how do I tell Philip that his father did not want to be a part of his life.

Alexander always avoided the topic of having children and each time I would get more and more frustrated. I know I'm being selfish because he has childhood trauma and children and family were topics we would rarely speak about but I wanted him to get over it.

This is what I didn't want to happen I wanted him out of my life completely but no the Universe and God had to work against me. Although the dinner was wonderful I deeply regret going cause now I know that I'm finally going to face consequences of my past actions and that scares me.

After a night of overthinking and panic attacks I finally managed to get some sleep. I woke up feeling the movements of another being next me. It was Pip my beautiful baby boy.

"Mowning mummy I heard yew sniffling in the night sooo I came to give you huggys" Pip said which caused a smile to emerge on my face.

"Pip come here please" I said whilst engulfing my son in the biggest hug I had ever given him

"Pip just remember that everything I do I do for you okay. I love you so much and even if you don't have your other parent just know that I will love your forever and always" I said whilst trying to stop myself from crying

Philip didn't reply but instead just hugged me tighter which made me smile wider which I thought was impossible.

Then suddenly I heard a notification go of on my phone which caught me by surprise

Message from Unknown Number

Hey Betsey I remember from last night that you didn't have my number so here it is.

Also I really enjoyed the dinner I was wondering if I could come over to your place if that's fine with you if its not then that's also fine.

I pick my phone up and replied

Message to Unknown Number

Hi Alex thank you for giving me your number and of course you can come over for dinner . you don't need me to send my address as you already know cant wait to see you

Message from Unknown Number

Can't wait as well I'll be there before 6:00pm

This is it this is when I will tell Alexander that Philip was his son. Now I have to try and find some good food to prepare so that Alexander would be so happy with the food that he'll not be angry with the big news that I'm about to break to him.

Hey guys I decided to continue this story because I'm on break for 3 months so why not make the most of it. Please tell me your thoughts and if there is anything you want me to add tell me and I'll try and add it to my story.

Love you guys