Soulmates

part 13

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I hear the front door opening.

Tom: Y/n? I'm home!

I lay in the bed. Tom comes to me and layss down next to me. I hear his breath and get flashbacks to yesterday. I jump up and go back a bit. Tom looks at me in shock and also confused.

Y/n *whisper*: I'm sorry!

I rush outside and grab my jacket. I wrap it around me. I was wearing one of my hoodies already and a sweatpants. Tom comes to me and wanna grab my arm but I pull back.

Y/n *weakly*: I can't! I'm so sorry!

I have tears in my eyes.

Tom: What happened?

Y/n: I wish I could tell you. But I can't!

Tom: Why not?

Y/n: Because I'm ashamed and I feel dirty and disgusting.

Tom: You don't have to be! I'm here! Tell me!

Y/n *crying*: I can't!

Tom: Please!

Y/n *crying*: No! Please! Don't force me!

It feels like I'm trapped in my memories.

Tom: I'm not forcing you at all! What the hell is wrong with you?

Y/n *crying*: What wrong with me?! You're saying saying that so easily! But you're not the one who got raped by one -

Tom: What?

I recognize what I just said. I told him.

Y/n *crying*: Please don't hate me!

Tom: I'll help you, darling! We'll get through this together!

He steps forward and I step back.

Tom: I'm sorry!

He steps back and smiles at me.

Tom: You can have my room and I'll sleep here if you feel better than!

Y/n: You don't have to! I can sleep here aswell!

Tom: No! I want you to feel comfortable! I love you and nothing will ever change that!

I stare into his eyes. He seems helpless and sad.

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I'm asleep and dream. I lay in the tub with Tom, I guess. I lay on his naked body. I play with the foam swimming on the hot water. Tom says something but I can't understand it.

Y/n: What?

I turn around and scream. That isn't Tom! It's the man! He touches me.

Y/n: PLEASE! LEAVE ME ALONE!

I rip open my eyes and Tom rushes in. He looks at my sweaty, and wet of tears, face.

Tom: It was just a dream! It's okay! You're safe!

He leaves and comes back with two cups.

Tom: When I used to have a nightmare as a kid or when I was feeling not so good, my mom made tea. This tea. She told me it would make my inside warm and make me sleep well.

I swallow.

Y/n: Could give it to me?

Tom: Really?

I swallow and nod again. He gets closer and gives me the cup. Our fingers touch. STAY CALM Y/N! HE'S YOUR BOYFRIEND!

Tom: Y/n? Are you okay?

I nod and start drinking the tea. It tastes good and it makes me feel warn from the inside. I start feeling sleepy and my eyes start closing. Tom takes the cup and leaves. Thank you Tom! I love you! I wish I would've told him!