HaPpY : binsung

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"Good morning, Han."

He batted an eye, yet he pretended to not hear as I seated myself on that window seat.

That time wasn't the last.

Jisung wasn't exactly how I used to remember him. He used to be more giggly, jokes around the class, Yes, he indeed stood out in a positive light of what seems to be years ago. Not in a way, I would in terms of being a famous student. He stayed on the sidelines even as a class rep, but always left a significant impact, we respected him.

Him, coming out as gay, We didn't know if it's a good thing. I should be happy, yet I can't help but dislike it in a way because something shifted after it.

He doesn't smile that much anymore nor jokes around.

He went fairly quiet. He even sounded rude whenever I talk to him, unlike when he's still one of the officers. I don't see anyone judging him or teasing him about it, he's the one getting caught punching someone.

I thought we were all friends. But after the video incident, we all went estranged and the class broke into many parts.

It turns out that Jisung was our glue, the one who held the class all along.

Even Chan the president, has been doing good yet the sentiments of the class we once had was.

Gone.

Just gone.

It isn't the same anymore.

The approaching graduation is getting everyone gloomy too.

Today- It was just another day, one of the too many school events, this time I might've dragged Jisung again, escaping my lovely followers.

"Oh- a friend texted me, we'll hang out for the rest of the event, I can't assure you that I'll be able to visit your stalls."  I pretended to text on my phone...making up excuses to get myself out of their grips.

"Is it that fag, Jisung, again?"

It almost make me gag, hearing it come out so uneffortlessly on someone who's supposedly my "fan"

"Did I hear that right? How dare you call yourself a seolar with that mouth of yours, young lady?" I unintentionally snapped. They dispersed and didn't follow me any longer that day, seeing how my mood went down the drain.

What's wrong with people? they didn't even know the guy.

It caused a little bit of a stir online, Every single thing I say ends up there at the feeds, Respecting who I'm friends with and such or That I should pick my peers. It becomes a discussion. Everything was a discussion.

People kept bantering here and there. 

I may not fully know him, yet, I knew that Jisung isn't as bad as they think he is.

Jisung was outed in a very bad way...

I've gotten used to randomly taking one of his earphones and stick it into my ear lately, it started that one lunchtime. He seemed so immersed he looked like sleeping but he wasn't and he's scribbling on his notepad. He looked at me with a questioning eye, startled as I took one of the tiny headsets and I watched him sigh, leaned back down on his desk, and rested his head where he originally was, turning away from me. He seemed to exhausted to even care.

My seolars came in cue for lunch, and Jisung's glare would always meet them. which made them hesitant, seeing his earphones on me, I smiled at them invitingly. Jisung just always scowls on anyone nowadays. He's kinda scary.
Even the jocks stirred away from him.

"Hello, guys, how are you all today?  Please be mindful of the cord." I said casually, pointing to jisung, furling his eyebrows, and shook his head subtly and bobbed his head back to the desk and settled down.

And then it started, the routine, they collectively ask how I'm doing, getting offered lunch boxes and they settled down around me some sitting on the floor, on my desk, and leaning on Jisung's chair.

My lunchtime is often spent like this, Jisung brought the difference. He's become my escape literally and I can spend my time without anyone else. Maybe switching with Chan's seat was a good decision after all.