Out From Hiding

Making Up And Making Out

Anthony

         I freaked out and I overreacted. I love him back. I really do.  He makes my heart swell with joy. I need to make this right.
    But how? I can't fix what I just did. I hurt him. I left him thinking that I didn't love him. How could I?

Lin

        I'm just gonna pour another drink. I don't have time for this. I don't have fucking time for this. Vodka. Vodka. Vodka. Fuck it all. Don't care.  I can always find someone else.  Except I have to see Anthony tomorrow. I have to see him everyday until one of us leave the show.  I lay down on my couch and wallow in my sadness.  Until I hear a knock.
"Who is it?" I call out
"Im sorry." Anthony. An unmistakable voice. I can hear that hes been crying but the airy feminine voice is all the same.
"Its unlocked." I say weakly. The door unlatches and I close my eyes. It hurts so bad. He's here to let me down softly. He doesn't love me.
"I messed up." He started.
"No you didn't, I fell and you didn't. Not your fault."
"But I *did*." He pushes
"What?"
"I did fall, I'm just scared of this."
"Of me?"
"No! Just.." His voice falters before he continues, "Its just that I'm so used to being a secret. Not a real.. boyfriend. No real love."
"I told you that its real."
"I know, this is just .. new to me."
"then lets figure it out together."
"am i forgiven?"
"of course."
I slowly put my hand on the back of his head. I curl my fingers into his hair, put my other hand on his cheek and pull him in.  I place a gentle kiss onto him.    Anthony pulls back to look at me. The eye contact made me blush.
"What are you looking at?"
"You. You change everyday and I want to remember every moment."
"Then take your time." I smile and let him study my face.  Then he initiates another kiss. My entire body aches with admiration for him.  In such a short amount of time he came out, lost his virginity and then admitted true feelings for me. His kind-of boss.
"I could kiss you a million times." Anthony says
"I could kiss you back a bajillion times."  I giggle and Anthony rolls his eyes. Suddenly he pushes me flat onto the couch where we were sitting.
"woah" i breathe out in surprise
"sh" His hands hold me down while he explores my mouth. My anxiety from the past few days drains out of my body.  No work to do, just pressure holding me down and anthony's lips on mine.  Pure bliss.
"There, I feel better" Anthony says, letting me move out from under him.
"Me too." I say, still blissfully daydreaming about the taste of his mouth.
"Will you be my boyfriend?" Anthony asks and quickly looks away.
"Yes"

Authors Note
hey bitches. im burnt out from school so if the book sucks im sorry. i want there to be substance and not ALLLL sex. even tho im in a horny phase rn. its currently 1:30 am . i love u all.