Out From Hiding

Closeted

A n t h o n y

I locked the door to my dressing room and looked in the mirror...ok.  I had my wig on to be Phillip and my long curls were framing my face pretty well.  I wanted to put makeup on , really badly.  I shouldn't because Phillip was a young boy but I needed to. 
I looked around to see if anyone was here even though I knew no one was.  I opened my secret drawer and pulled out a natural-looking lip liner.  I drew it on then put just a smidge of lip gloss in the center and tapped it out with my finger.  Then I put a little more mascara on and put eyeliner in the outer corner of my eye only.  I fluffed my hair and tried to smile but couldn't. 
I felt insecure sometimes.  A lot, actually.  I knew I was a boy, but I was feminine.  I shaved basically everywhere and liked a little makeup to feminize my features.  I liked keeping my body fit and curvy instead of body-builder muscles.  I realised I could sneak a little bit more blush on so I pulled out my compact.  I grabbed a fluffy brush and tapped some color onto the apples of my cheeks and blended outwards.  I hear the door turn too late.

"Anthony! Can you help me with...why aren't you letting Sasha *idk it's a makeup artists name I made up* fix your makeup for you?" Lin asks and I remember that he has a special key and he uses it when he's sneaking in quietly during the show. 
"I i" I stammer and feel my cheeks grow hot.
"Whatever you say is okay, I'm not angry" Lin responds softly , making his way towards me.
"I just-" I start then break down into tears. 
"Oh my god, Anthony it's okay, I'm not judging you in any way right now, shhh it's totally fine" he blubbers and tries to soothe me.
"Should I bring someone else in?" He asks, worried.
"No" I say, voice scratchy.
"Oh , Anthony please stop crying I'm gonna cry" he says .  Knowing him, he really will.  I sniffles and tap
under my eyes dry.

        "I need to tell you something." I start
"If you are trans I still love and support you, no matter what" he says reassuringly.   I find my heart rate increasing when he says he loves me.  What. What. What. What did I just think??? I don't think about my boss like that.
"I'm not trans I'm just feminine and I like wearing makeup and stuff" I admit.
"That's really cool, Ant" Lin tells me
"What?" I'm confused, he's supposed to be a little disappointed in me.
"Think of the fanart, you with makeup. I can see it now." He says and I giggle. 
"You even have a cute little laugh, please don't hide things, we are best friends" he says and I smile.
"Best friends" I whisper and we embrace warmly.

OH SHIT WE HAVE A SCENE OH NO NO TIME FOR COMING OUT SESSIONS
"Oh my god what are we doing?" I whisper yell and Lins eyes widen.  We scramble up and pray we didn't ruin the show.

A/N. Yo.  I'm actually gonna update this so if you want...comment something and request something idk it's gonna be really lit so maybe add this to your library.