Everything is new and I'm so afraid. They say change is a good thing but it doesn't always work like this. The unexpected brings me fear, anxiety, insecurity, like if I don't have any control about what's going to happen.
What if everything goes wrong? If all the expectations and plans don't work, what am I gonna do? My mind keeps running and running on everything that could be wrong in the future.
All the mistakes, wrong decisions, problems that may appear even if I make everything right. Even if we plan everything, detailed, we don't predict the future, right? So how can I put my mind at ease, when I will be away from my safe zone?
I have all these fears inside and he's the only thing that keeps me going through. When I look at his eyes and feel his arms around me, it's like he's infecting me with all his positivity and excitement. It's like nothing is wrong with him, like if he can face the whole new world without a single wrinkle on his forehead. I don't know how he can be so secure, but I always think about how lucky I am to have him by my side.
Looking back, after all those years without talking with each other or when we were a huge confusion and indecision, I wonder how life could've been easier if we would be able to understand each other more then. Maybe in our new future, we will face things together and it will make us stronger. I don't know what I'm gonna do if it doesn't happen this way.
Maybe I know nothing about the future, but there's something I will do my best to not to change: us.
Even in a thousand years, I wanna picture us together, happy, side by side, as it's supposed to be. Sharing our fears, insecurities and even failures. I wanna be there for you and have you by my side as a friend, a supporter, a companion, a lover.
I know sometimes it will be hard, but I know that if we're together, things will be easier to get through.
You give me strength everyday and I'm so thankful for having you.
I hope I can do the same for you, always.
As long as I have you, no matter where or how, I will always be in my safe zone.
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Unsaid Things: safe zone
Hayran KurguOh Aew is anxious about the future. It's always hard to deal with changes, even more when they lead to the future. But at least, he has Teh to always make things better. "Looking back, after all those years without talking with each other or when w...
