TW's:
-Mentions bullying
-Self harm
-Self hateGeorge's POV
TW self harm
I had made a small cut in my wrist with the small blade I took with me as I walked to the bathroom while crying. I waited for the small scratch to stop bleeding, pulled my sleeves far over my arms full of wounds and walked back to class after I texted shortly with Dream, my only friend, unfortunately he wasn't here with me.
TW over
I wiped my tears away and pulled my hood over my head as I passed Clay. Clay didn't say anything this time since he was looking at his phone and I sped up, walking quickly to the classroom's door.
I sat back down on my chair and the teacher walked closer to me as the whole class was just talking a bit about the camp we were going on.
'Are you okay, George?'
I smiled and nodded. 'I'm fine, thanks.'
'You cried, I don't think you're okay.'
'Oh, no worries. I'm totally fine, I'm excited for the camp!'
I didn't even know I was this good at acting, but I acted so happy that I even believed it myself. Although, I was everything but happy. I had been bullied by Clay and his friends for five years now and I was breaking.
It all started five years ago when I changed classes. I was in the same class as Clay and a group of people, the group of people started being mean to me and Clay added in. The whole group went to a different class two years after that, but Clay has always stayed in the same class as me, bullying me a lot.
When the bullying had been going on for three years, I sometimes started cutting myself to release the pain somehow. No one knew I did that, I wasn't going to tell anyone either. I would keep this a secret forever, they would only bully me even more.
I had been thinking of telling Dream, my online best friend. I knew he wouldn't try to stop me and I knew he would still love me, telling me he did care about me. Although, Dream also didn't know about me getting bullied for years. I didn't dare to tell him, I knew he would get really mad at them. I didn't want him to contact them.
My teacher left me alone eventually and I kept quiet for the rest of the day, going home after that. My parents were both at work and I threw my bag down in the living room, running upstairs after. There, the tears started streaming down my face as I realised everything that had happened today.
Was I actually that ugly? I stood up slowly and stood in front of my mirror, staring at my reflection with tears in my eyes. I was indeed really ugly and I felt sad by looking at myself.
TW self harm+blood
After a while I pulled off my hoodie, looking at my body as I started crying. I wasn't muscular at all, I was pale and too skinny. My arms were also covered in scars and I quickly pulled my hoodie back on, rolling up my sleeves.
As some sort of automatism, I grabbed one of my blades, making multiple cuts in my arm. Every cut had a reason, most being about all my insecurities.
I realised I should stop cutting myself after a while and laid my blade back down, going to the bathroom to wash off the blood on my arms. I just waited patiently for the wounds to stop bleeding and when they did after ten minutes, I walked back to my bed.
TW over
I pulled my hoodies' sleeves far over my hands so only my fingers were visible and I grabbed my phone to text Dream.
Gogy
I'm home :)Dream
Me too, wanna talk about your day?Gogy
It's fine tho :) just some people were annoyingDream
I'm sorry :( you're amazing and they should see that tooGogy
I wish, maybe one day :DI took a deep breath in real life and I looked at my screen. I wanted to tell Dream that I cut myself, but I found it hard to talk about.
Gogy
Can I tell you something which is quite difficult for me?Dream
Of course <3Gogy
And you won't get mad at me?Dream
I will never :)Gogy
I'm not as happy as I act sometimesDream
I'm so sorry, Gogy. How is this showing?I had my heart beat extremely fast and I was shaking slightly.
Gogy
I'm very nervousDream
Take your time <3Gogy
So I kind of self harmDream
Oh no, Gogy :( are you alright? How long have you been doing this for?Gogy
A few years, I'm sorry. Are you mad? Or do you like me less now?Dream
I'm not mad and I don't like you less. Do you do it often? <3Gogy
I did today a few times, but I hadn't done it in four days before :)Dream
I'm so proud! Four days is a big thing!Gogy
Do you think so?Dream
I do! Shall we try to beat your four days record? You can try five!I blushed and smiled. He still cared and was being really sweet to me.
Gogy
Would you be mad if I fail?Dream
I wouldn't, but you're not going to fail. You're strong and I'm going to help you. May I ask how you self harm?Gogy
I cutDream
Do you have a lot of blades?Gogy
Quite someDream
What if we throw away one blade a day? You don't need multiple at all. One day we can throw out your last blade. I will visit you once and we will do it together :)Gogy
Thanks, Dream. Thanks for caring, I've never told this to anyone and I'm glad you know now. I would like to hide this for everyone else tho, is that alright?Dream
It is, I won't tell anyone either <3 I love you, Gogy. Just as much as I did before you told me thisGogy
I love you too <3I put my phone down and smiled. Dream made me happier and I laid down in my bed, closing my eyes. I was so tired that I ended up falling asleep.
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