I hope no one has to go through all the pain I am feeling right now.
The love of my life left me without saying goodbye.
He just left.
How could you even do that?
I woke up and he wasn't next to me.
He was gone without a goodbye.
And I thought he loved me.
Well, now I definitley know he didn't or why else would he leave?
I know for sure that this is the worst thing that ever happened to me.
I mean who would want, that the love of your life just leaves you without a reason?
Three years of a wonderful relationship and than this.
I don't know if I should hate him or not, because I know I'm not the best person.
I mean I'm just really ugly and fat and he's muscular and the prettiest person on earth.
I just really feel alone now.
Without him it isn't the same.
He left me with questions and I think I'm never gonna get the answers.
Is it even worth living without him?
Did he cheat on me and left me for another person?
Did he just fool around with me?
Does he find it hilarious to just leave me alone with that when he knows about my insecurity?
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I was standing on a cliff, the one were me and him used to hang out. All the memories of our happy time comes back to my mind. How we had our first date here and our first kiss. How we celebrated our birthdays here. Everything was now ruined.
I took a step closer to the edge and looked down. Just one step more and all my pain would fly away. I took a deep breath and jumped. The wind blew around me and I could swear I saw him on the cliff looking down on me with tears.
Before I hit the ground I heard him scream my name: "Luke, no!"
I whispered: "Bye Ashton, I love you."
Than everything went black.
I'm sorry, but I don't feel very good because I had detention today and well my life has been a bit out of hand right now, so no happy One Shot. But if I get better soon I'll make a happy Lashton or Malum One Shot and I'll try to make it long.
Have a nice day.
