I was sitting on my bed when Ashton walked in.
"What do you want?", I asked a bit stressed.
"Michael...uhm...I want to tell you something important but when you're not in mood I tell it another time."
"No I want to know it. Please tell me.", I looked at him with puppy eyes.
"Ok...uhm...Calum...he...he...", Ashton mumbled.
"What's with Calum?", I asked curious.
"He...uhm..." "Ashton tell it!", I said angry because he didn't want to tell it.
"Uhm I don't know how to say." "Come on Ashton. What's with Cal?"
"I heard how he said to Luke 'I love you'", he said very quiet.
I felt how a tear rolled down my cheek.
Why did he said that to Luke?
"Stop crying Michael. I know you love Calum but I think he didn't love Luke. Why should he say this to him when Luke is my boyfriend."
"He could said this cause he really loves him. I know Luke only loves you but it hurts to know that Calum probably would never love me.", I stuttered while the tears runned out of my eyes like a waterfall.
"Oh Mikey. You're such a great person. Someday Calum would also love you if he didn't do it yet. Look how happy he is when he's with you."
"But he's a really wonderful person and I'm just a fat and ugly pig."
"Don't ever say that again. You're as great as Calum.", he said and hugged me tightly.
"Thanks Ash. You're a good friend." "Don't thank me. Real friends do this to make the other happy because they care about one another."
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It's 11pm and I'm laying on my bed. The words Ashton told me made me a little happier but to know that Calum loves Luke is so damn terrible.
I hope someday he would love me as much as I love him and I love him a lot.
A knock on my door stopped me of thinking and I screamed: "Come in."
The door opened and many seconds after it closed.
I looked up and saw Calum right in front of me.
"What is?", I asked and tryed not to break out in tears again.
"I want to tell you a secret."
Oh a secret? That you love Luke and not me. Fuck it!
"Aha a secret. I already know it and now leave me the fuck alone!", I screamed at him and turned away so that he couldn't see my tears.
"Why so angry? I thought you would be happy.", he said sadly.
Pah happy about the fact that you love my friend and not me? Not in this world Calum Thomas Hood!
"Happy about the fact that you love Luke? Are you serious? Oh please!"
"What? No, I don't love Luke."
"Tell your shit to another person. Ashton heard you and told me everything.", more and more tears runned over my cheek.
I felt someone cuddle me. Why Calum? Why do you do this to me?
"Stop crying Mikey. Ashton understood something wrong. I asked Luke if he can act as if he's you so I can try at him how to tell you my feelings. I was too afraid to say it to you and so I asked Luke for help."
"What? So you don't love Luke?", I asked and turned to face Calum.
He wiped my tears away and said: "Don't be silly. Mikey I love you more than words can explain."
"Really?", I stopped crying and looked into his big brown eyes.
"Yes Michael. And now kiss me. Kiss me like it would be the last day we see each other."
I did what he said and our lips found a common rhythm.
Wow this feeling was incredible.
After our kiss we cuddled we looked each other in the eyes.
"So are we like...boyfriends?" "Yes, when you want us to." "I'd love that."
"What a great honour to call Michael Gordon Clifford my boyfriend.", Calum said with a big smile on his swollen lips.
We cuddled into the sheets and fell asleep with a great feeling in our stomachs....
