Forgotten Love [Loki x reader] (Part 2)

Chapter 4

-- your POV --

-Hadeon: "And you fucking agreed to it?" He is upset. "Do I have to remind you what those people did to you?"

-Y/n: "No, you don't have to, i know that myself, thanks. But babe, I want to move on. We're engaged, I want to start a new life with you, but I first need to end my old life and if you like it or not, they belong to it." I remain calm.

-Hadeon: "You could've send them a stupid message." He also gets calmer.

-Y/n: "I never said goodbye to them, I just ran away. I think it's just fair to go there." He finally sits down next to me, after running around the room. "And besides, it's just a stupid dinner. 2 or 3 hours, nothing more. We won't even notice that we've been there and if you behave you can have some dessert." I put my hands on my shoulders and rest my head on one of them.

-Hadeon: "That sounds good, but I don't know if I should go there. I don't know these people and if I'm being Honest, I don't want to know them." He tilts his head a little to my side, so that I can see his profile.

-Y/n: "I can go by myself if you don't want to go there." I offer.

-Hadeon: "No, What if they lock you up again?" He tensed and I started to massage his shoulders.

-Y/n: "Then I'm sure you'll storm this place with the police." I kiss his right cheek.

-Hadeon: "You know me too well." He turns around completely and kisses me on the lips. "Are you sure that it's okay if I let you go there alone?"

-Y/n: "I lived there for almost a year, one more day won't kill me. And now come here." I pull him towards me on his collar of his shirt. We start to kiss passionately.

-Hadeon: "You want another round after yesterday?" He asks between the kiss and I had to smile.

-Y/n: "You know that I can't get enough of you."

Now he also laughed and put his hands on my waist. We haven't been so sexual active because of our work. It's mostly that he has to work a lot, but sometimes it's my fault too. We have the perfect life, I don't even want to complain, but it would be nice to see my future-husband more often than just at night when we Are so tired that we don't even really talk to each other anymore. But there are days, where we don't have a lot to do and then we have a date and afterwards sex or we just cuddle. It depends on our mood and how much stress we have at work.

He lifts me up from the couch and I automatically put my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. The kiss didn't stop. We carries me over to our bedroom, because he doesn't like it if we do it somewhere else, which is acceptable. When we arrived at our bedroom he lets me fall down on the bed. I remember the first time he did so; he felt so bad afterwards that we didn't have sex, but I assured him that I didn't mind and that I was fine. After a few times he let me fall down very carefully, he got used to it and doesn't think about it too much anymore.

We are quick to undress ourselves, because that is the quickest way. He comes down to me on the bed and climbs over me. His one hand holds the framework of our bed, so that he can really hover above me. He looks down at me with his green, intimidating eyes and back up, so that our eyes meet. It doesn't take long and I couldn't take another breath in until our lips met too.

*

It's already late at night and I just woke up next to Hadeon who is deeply asleep. I take one of his shirts and put it on quickly before sneaking out of our bedroom. I don't want to wake him up or anything, that's why I left. I still had my trouble to find my way out because of the darkness and my eyes still weren't used to it as much.

We have a balcony outside of our living room - we also have one at our bedroom but as I said, I don't want to wake him up or anything - and that's where I'm headed to go. I slide the door open and in the same moment a fresh breeze of the cool night wind is blowing in my face. The moon is shining bright and I can't help but to think of Selene and Ares. Did they know about me not being a real goddess back then? Is that why they always treated me like shit? I usually stopped asking myself those questions but right now I just can't stop it. It's just fair to them to think of them.

I lean with my arms on the railing and look down. New York City, that's what I see. Hadeon never wanted to live in a city. He said it's too noisy and that there are too many people and it's full of stress. His mother told me about that, he himself never spoke a word about not wanting to live here. He just wanted to make me happy, all the time. He puts me first since the moment we met, I think. It just sometimes doesn't feel right. He shouldn't have to live here, where he actually never wanted to live. He shouldn't be alone in bed right now. I shouldn't have that bad feeling deep inside of me whenever I look him in the eyes and which I always push aside, because he doesn't deserve it. I'm not good for him; I never actually was. We both know that.

"What Are you doing here all alone?" The familiar voice of Hadeon interrupts me thought - thank god.

-Y/n: "I don't know. I couldn't sleep." I don't look at him, I just feel too guilty somehow.

-Hadeon: "Are you nervous?" He comes closer and hugs me from behind.

-Y/n: "About what?" He puts his head on my shoulder.

-Hadeon: "About anything. Our wedding, the dinner with the Avengers, for example."

-Y/n: "Is it bad if both is true?" I turn around in his arms to finally face him.

-Hadeon: "No." His voice is warm and he gives me a smile, followed by a kiss on the forehead. "It's normal."

-Y/n: "Are you nervous too?"

-Hadeon: "Of course I am. I have to try not to faint when you walk down the aisle on your dress." I giggle and put my face on his chest.

-Y/n: "Had to think about them." I say quietly. I never really opened completely up to him, at least what my feelings were through the time. He just knows what happened.

-Hadeon: "And that's okay." He caresses my hair.

-Y/n: "Do you think they knew about me?" It's not an unfamiliar question for him.

-Hadeon: "I thought we've been through this?" He pulls me away a little just to look me in the eyes.

-Y/n: "I know, I'm sorry. Just forget it. It's stupid anyway. You didn't know them and even if, you wouldn't know the answer." I look away, to my left, to not look into his eyes.

-Hadeon: "I just don't get why you're thinking of them, you know? From what you told me, they've done terrible things to you and yeah, maybe you killed them but have you ever done anything else through all those other years to them, which would justify any of their actions even just a little bit?" He pulls my head back with his hand on my chin.

-Y/n: "They were my siblings, Hadeon." I voice sounds weaker as I wanted it to be. I'm not going to cry, I've cried enough, but it's still a hurting subject to talk about.

-Hadeon: "Yeah i know, sorry." He said after a sigh. "I would probably react the same way if it happened with me and my sister." He put his hands on each side on my head and leaned in for a kiss, which I didn't deny.

-Y/n: "And I'm sorry for bringing this up." I said after we separated our lips again.

-Hadeon: "Don't be. Now c'mon, let's go to sleep."

He lays his arms around my waist and leads us both back into the bedroom. Before closing the door to the balcony of course. We laid down - I am the little spoon - and cuddled, just as we always did when I wasn't feeling okay. It still took long until I finally fell asleep.