Jens POV
I'm back home. We only stayed for like the weekend, now I'm home Emme's questioning me like crazy. She thinks I did something which I didn't we were just really flirty the entire time
"Emme we didn't do anything, and plus why are you even asking me these things, your to young"
"Actually I'm not, your just getting older"
"Well that's mean to say, and if I was getting older don't you think I would stop having sex right now?" I said grabbing a healthy snack from the kitchen and sitting at the kitchen stools
"No" she said bluntly
"And why not?"
"Just cause, look I wanna be your like best friend! please tell meeee...Ma seriously what'd you guys do" she begged
"Ok fine, in all honesty we did nothing. We flirted a lot but that's it. I'm not lying to you kid. Even if I did I wouldn't tell you" I said being honest with her because she obviously wants to know stuff and she wants me happy but I'm not gonna tell my baby about me having sex
"Well I wouldn't wanna hear that anyways. But I'm proud of you for controlling yourself, it's not normal for you" she said laughing about the last part
I stared at her through the corner of my eye and she laughed harder
"Shut up please. Here take a selfie with me" I said going on Snapchat
"Mom don't say selfie"
"Why it's cute? You know your very demanding" I said and started recording and she started posing
"Yess Emme! Get it. get it, get it" I said and started laughing at the part where she was dancing
I stopped it and captioned it with
"mini me💕"
"Mom can you let me get Instagram now?" She said changing the subject
"No" Emme knew I would say that I don't even know why she asked
"Please" she said jumping up and down like a baby
"Emme no. You know I don't want you to have it" I said going to the guest room with her following me still asking even though I'm still saying no
Yes me Emme and max are sleeping I'm one room because we're still at my moms, i wanna stay here for a while. Is that bad? Nope it's my moms house
"Max, tell mom to let me get Instagram" she said while max was playing his game
"Mom let Emme get Instagram" he said still focused on his game
"See! Max even wants me to get it" she said crossing her arms flopping in his gaming chair While I sat on the edge of his bed playing with his hair
"Your brothers on his game and not paying attention" I said kissing his head softly
"Actually I'm not, by the way can I have Twitter?" He asked putting down his game and playing with my fingers
"Sure"
"What the! How is that fair? Ma, now your just showing favoritism! You know what forget it, max has always been the favorite anyways" she said storming out of the room
I was just joking- I didn't know she felt that way. Well I'm a bad mother again
"Wait can I have Twitter still?" Max asked
"Wait for me I'll see" i said walking out of his room
"Emme!" I yelled out for her
Gosh she's so damn sensitive
She wasn't in my moms room or in her the bathroom, or the kitchen
"Emme Maribel!" I said still searching for her
I walked in the backyard by my moms garden to see her folded up with her knees to her chest and her head buried into this, why is she cryingggg
She's so sensitive, like her mama. She's crying over Instagram, but I did say max could have Twitter and she couldn't have Instagram so i see why
But I didn't know she felt like I show favoritism to Max. I love both of them equally! None more than the other, they are both my babies I don't know why on earth she feels like that
"Emme, baby. Mommy's sorry I was just joking come here please"
"You weren't joking, just leave me alone right now. I actually like talking to you, I want to get a better bond with you but you never tell me things so just leave me alone, you aren't ever interested anyways. People only see what's on the outside and in pictures but never know what's behind closed doors. Why can't we just be normal" she said looking into garden like she was talking to herself, with her back facing me
Again I feel like a bad mother. I hate myself for making her feel like this even though I didn't know at all or else I would've resolved this problem sooner
I went and sat beside her and tucked her hair behind her ear
"Emms, i-I didn't know you felt like this"
"Of course you didn't"
"Look I'm very sorry, i love you so much baby. I don't love your brother more, I love you and your brother the same, not you more than him and not him more than you. You should know that very well, I can't be your friend because that's not what I'm here for. I'm here to be your mommy, to be there for you when you feel down. Sure we can talk about things, I'll make sure to hang out with your more, because I don't want you to ever feel like I love you less than anyone, i love you and your brother more than I love anything Emme and I wanna give you two the world, but before I do that I have to make sure your happy. Your not though, so I'm gonna make sure that you are! Because I love you so much I can't even tell you how much I do Emme. Y'all are my kids, no one else's. My babies and I love you two. You need to know that your mommy is always here I promise Emme! Please know that" I said tearing up..just a bit
By the time I said all of that her head turned around and she gave me the slightest smile
"I know you love ma, but can I feel that. The affection, the care. I don't feel it. I feel like your boyfriends get more attention than us"
"I'm sorry, as a mom I should make sure you feel that. How about mommy doesn't get a boyfriend until we agree on it. Until you feel like our bond is stronger?" I said making her smile
"Okay" she said softly
"Yes?" I said smiling
"Yes, but promise me" she said holding out her pinky
"I promise! I love you Emme Muñiz" i said wrapping my pinky around hers
"Can I have a hug?" I asked and she held out her arms
"Oh yes! Mommy's baby! I love you to much to see you cry. I don't like it" I said kissing her forehead
"I'm sorry" she muffled into my neck
"It's okay but tell me this stuff so I know how you feel ok?" I said and nodded 'yes'
"Okay! Now how about we do something together"
"Like what?" She asked
"I don't know? Wanna help me dye my hair haha"
"Only if you let me cut my hair more" she said smiling
"How short do you wanna go?!" I asked getting kinda upset because she wants to cut her hair shorter I mean mine was that short but-
"Mom" she said sternly
"Fine but just a little bit" I said and she started clapping happily
"You can have it" I said and she looked at me like what?
"Huh? Instagram" she said trying not to smile
"Yes, but it's private" I said pointing at her
"Fineee"
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Guys this book is gonna be coming to an end sooner or later because it just needs to be over so I can start writing other books. But Vote plsss❤️
