you, me and the universe

Maybe In Another Universe We'd Work

Songs you can listen to for this oneshot :

1) Time Walking On Memories by Nell

"Why do you keep saying that?", Jisoo spat, heavy breathing as Jinyoung packed his bags, "Why, Jinyoung? Why do you keep saying it's over?", she said, hurt. They were now currently in their shared apartment, having another one of their heated arguments. Except this time, Jisoo felt like this was going to be the last one.

"Because it is!", Jinyoung retorted, turning to look at his soon to be ex-girlfriend, "Look at us, we keep ending up in screaming matches for the past few months now.", Jinyoung pointed out.

"That's because you won't communicate with me anymore.", Jisoo said, taking a deep breath as she felt a big lump in her throat, "I can't keep fighting with you anymore okay.", Jisoo breathed, as a tear slip. And usually at the sight, Jinyoung would feel his chest tightened, but now he feels nothing. He then went back to packing.

"Then we don't have to anymore. It's over.", Jinyoung said, almost bluntly, and Jisoo felt her heart shatter at that. It hurt her every being that Jinyoung was saying it so nonchalantly, like he meant it.

"Seriously?", Jisoo exhaled shakily, "Do you really not have even an ounce of love for me left in you?", Jisoo said in disbelief, her voice cracking, more tears streaming down her face. Jinyoung swallowed as he inhaled, he then turned to look at Jisoo.

"Jisoo.", Jinyoung said, his face softening, and that gave Jisoo hope, she pursed her lips together at that, "You're crying right now, and I..", he stammered, "..I don't feel anything.", Jinyoung admitted. As much as he hated himself for not feeling affected at all, he figured that he at least owned Jisoo transparency.

Jisoo inhaled at that, it dawned on her that he was right. It really is over. He's no longer in love with her anymore. Jisoo then wiped her tears quickly, although it didn't seem like it was stopping anytime soon. She was honestly rendered speechless. Jinyoung swallowed, feeling like an asshole.

"Jisoo..I-i'm sorry. I am.", Jinyoung apologised as he tried to touch her, but she then backed away. And Jinyoung's heart ached at that, he hated that he was coming out as an asshole, but he figured that then again, he really is an asshole.

"I'm going to go.", Jisoo swallowed, her heart hurting so much, she thought it was gonna explode, "When I come back, I want no trace of you here.", Jisoo said, not able to even look at him. She then mustered up the courage to look at him for the last time, tearful, and she found herself thinking–where did I go wrong with you?

"I never want to see you again, Jinyoung. Never.", Jisoo expressed, looking away. She then grabbed her purse, wanting to leave the apartment to give Jinyoung some space to pack his belongings and leave for good. As she left the house, she couldn't help but cry, she couldn't even tell if she deserved this or not.

It occured to Jisoo how easily people can change, how feelings can change. This time last year, he was promising her forever, and now he's no longer in love with her anymore. It was unfair and painful. But then again, she felt like she has no control over this, it was beyond her. Jinyoung is no longer in love with her anymore, what can she do about that? It wasn't like feelings can be forced anyway.

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Later that night, Jisoo got home, and deep down she still wished that this was just a horrible dream, that the love of her life wasn't actually out of her life for good. She inhaled as she entered her and Jinyoung's used to be shared apartment, it felt empty. She looked around, and she then glanced at the shoe shelf and saw no traces of Jinyoung's shoes.

Jisoo then went up to the master bedroom, and she saw that none of Jinyoung's belongings were on the dresser, she then opened the walk-in closet, and the other half that used to be Jinyoung's was empty. It occured to her that he really did leave. Jisoo bit down on her bottom lip at that, not having the energy to let herself break down into tears anymore, at least that was what she thought.

Jisoo then sighed as she closed the walk-in closet, figuring that she should just take a shower and get ready for bed. And after an hour of showering and crying her heart out, she then decided that she should maybe make herself some tea to calm herself down, and also hopefully get some sleep tonight. Break up or not, she still had to go to work the next day.

Jisoo went over to the kitchen, taking out a mug and making herself a cup of strawberry tea, she then went over to sit at the counter and she then saw a piece of paper that was folded which had the words Jisoo written over it, and the keycard to her apartment, and she inhaled when she figured that Jinyoung must have left those before he left earlier.

Jisoo sat down placing down the mug of tea on the table, and she hesitantly took the piece of paper, she opened it and she pursed her lips together. Jinyoung had written her a letter. 

Jisoo,
I'm sorry. That is all I can think of right now. I don't know how to show you but I really hope you know I'm sorry. You don't deserve this at all. I admit it, I don't know what I can do to make it better, but I figured that I at least owed you the truth. The last 3 years I spent with you were amazing Jisoo. I was happy. And I don't regret it, not even one bit. I hope you know that you are not at fault for what happened, you are not responsible for the fact that I fell out of love, and you don't deserve this. I know you don't, you were nothing but great. I'm sorry I failed you and put you through hell. I tried so hard to figure myself out and to rekindle my feelings, but I failed, and you have every right to be angry, to feel hurt. I wish I knew what I could do. Regardless, I hope we both find the good in this goodbye eventually. And I hope you know I'm always wishing you well Jisoo. I hope you find happiness. You deserve it so much. Once again, I am truly, deeply, very sorry Jisoo.
Jinyoung.

Jisoo then folded the letter as her vision got misty, wondering how the hell was she going to move on from this.

How am I going to find the good in this goodbye, Jinyoung? She thought as she wiped her tears. She didn't know how she was going to come back from this or how is she even going to be open to the idea of falling in love ever again. Jisoo then pushed those thoughts aside, deciding that she didn't want to think about it right now.

But she knew one thing for sure, that things really are over. Over for good. Though before going to sleep later that night, with a heart so heavy, Jisoo found herself thinking–maybe in another universe we'd work.

END

HIII U GUYS I AM BACK AFTER TWO MONTHS HELLO im so so so soo sorry I just finished my finals and i am now on a two month break before my next (and also final) sem starts. hehe I AM SO SO SOOO DEEPLY SORRY FOR GHOSTING U GUYS FOR TWO MONTHS.

But now that i am back i will try my best to keep updating and keep u guys entertained, i will be writing oneshots, short stories for this jinji book as well as the love you still n always will oneshot book hehe.

Anyway I came up with this angst two days ago, I hope u guys like it. I've just been feeling heartbroken too lately zz

ALSO DONT WORRY, the continuation (part 2) of Five Years is in the works and will be published ASAP i PROMISE!!! thank u sm u guys and once again im sorry for going MIA for two months aaaa im back now.

Love, A 🦋