Niall's Princesses

Chapter 7 - I still love her

AN - WOW updated two days in a row you lucky little flamingos! I know this chapter is really short but I wanted to add this in before going back to the main storyline. The song on the side (Against All Odds) makes me cry already and let's just say I was a mess writing this while listening to it. Anyway here it is and I hope you enjoy it!

Niall’s P.O.V

That night I just lay in bed looking up at the ceiling. So Harry had been seeing Rebecca lately. Not that I find that a problem because well I guess they’re friends and me and her are over but it still hurts to know that one of my best mates has been meeting up with my ex.

I wasn’t planning on admitting it to him, especially now, but I still had feelings for Rebecca. I never really lost them. I never really meant to break up with her. I felt terrible about it after. I couldn’t admit it to Harry anyone, he told me that I couldn’t talk to her after hurting her so bad. I promised him I’d never hurt her and I screwed that up. He never quite trusted me after that but as far as I knew they soon stopped talking. I guess I was wrong.

Damn now I really thought about it I missed everything about her. The way she would always cheer me up even when I missed her loads, I could tell it was tearing her apart when I was on tour but she still made the effort to put a smile on my face. The way when she smiled it would literally light up any room she walked in. The way her hair always annoyed her and got in her way but it was her most prized possession. The way her eyes sparkled in the sunlight and would change colour slightly. I remembered every little thing that made her… her.

I didn’t even realise it but there were tears dripping down my face. I sniffed and wiped them away but the more I thought about her the more I found myself crying, trying not to think about her wasn’t working right now. My head was just filled with thoughts and memories.

I looked at my phone and went to my pictures. I still had a folder in there of me and Rebecca smiling and pulling stupid faces. I looked through them and smiled through my tears. I still had feelings for her, no wait. Fuck that, I still loved her. Did it really have to take me this long to realise it that no wonder I had never even taken an interest when management told me about girls that would be good to seen with. I just couldn’t get my mind off her all this time, she was always there in the back of my mind.

I looked for her contact, I knew she probably had a different number and everything but I had to at least try, I couldn’t not try to talk to her. I clicked on her contact and paused as the keys came up. What was I meant to say to her after about four years? ‘Hey sorry for breaking your heart and everything but I still love you’ No!

I sat there staring at my phone for probably two hours just trying to think of something to say.

-text-

Hey, sorry about everything that happened… I was wondering if maybe you wanted to meet up at some point? -N x

I sent it nervously. I didn’t expect a reply anyway. She probably hated me as much as Harry had hated me when he first found out. If he now found out that I was trying to meet up with her he’d probably strangle me but I was willing to take that risk if it meant seeing her face again.

I sat up in bed for the rest of the night remembering everything and how everything went wrong. It was like a flash back of everything right in my life that had all gone wrong.