Niall's Princesses

Chapter 13 - A Connection

AN - I know this is a really short chapter but it is sort of a filler chapter. Thankyou so much for over 2000 reads! It means so much!

It took me hours to get to sleep that night, then all that ran through my mind all night was doubts. I was in no way good enough to be a dad to them and the fact that Rebecca had done so well on her own and then I would come along and be terrible. Would it be better if I just got out their life and Rebecca could introduce someone else as their dad who would be able to care and love them the way I didn’t know how to. I was scared; I will openly admit that to myself that I was scared. I was scared that they wouldn’t like me, I was scared I wasn’t good enough, I was scared I wouldn’t form a proper connection with them. Of course I had bonded with them today but it wasn’t an instant connection and that’s to my own children. How can I be a good dad to them if I don’t even have a connection with them? Although I was asleep I could feel myself twisting and turning on the bed and knew I was most likely throwing the duvet on the floor or something.

I was awoken in the morning by feeling two small bodies jumping onto the bed.

“Daddy wake up!” I heard Lillie shout close to my ear. I smirked and wrapped my arms around both of them and pulling them down to the bed causing them to both start giggling. They were adorable when they started laughing. I couldn’t help but smile at them as they laid down either side of me and cuddled into my sides. I wrapped one arm around each of their back and pulled them closer and pressed a soft kiss to the top of their heads.

I looked up and saw Rebecca standing in the doorway as she smiled down at the three of us.

“Come on girls, you need to have breakfast and daddy needs to get dressed” She said and the girls jumped up and ran over to the table where I watched Rebecca bring two bowls of cereal over and they started eating it while I went off to get changed.

A few films later I decided it was probably time I should be going home. When the film we were watching at the moment finished I lifted Annabelle off my lap and put her back down onto the couch while I stood up. All three of them looked up at me and I smiled. They were all so similar.

“I have to go” I said worried that the girls might think I meant permanently. I assumed that they did as a look of worry struck across their faces and Rebecca hugged them closer to her.

“B-but you said you wouldn’t leave” Lillie stuttered with tears in her eyes and Annabelle nodded in agreement. I felt my heart drop as I saw the sad looks on their faces and the guilt of letting them think I was leaving them hit me.

“I promise I’ll be back, I just need to go home but I’ll come and see you again very very soon” I said smiling sweetly at them not wanting to leave it at them thinking I didn’t love them enough to stay here. The girls nodded sadly and I went over and gave them a big hug and kiss before Rebecca led me to the door.

“You’re so good with them” She said smiling. “I guess we’ll talk about when you’re next going to come and see them” She said and I nodded looking down slightly in thought.

“I was wondering if I could bring them over to mine, with you there of course, and the boys could meet them” I said hopefully. I knew she wouldn’t want me to look after them by myself which is why I invited her and I really wanted them to get to know my life so if I had to go on tour or something they could understand that I didn’t mean to leave them but I had to. I looked up to see Rebecca’s reaction and saw that a smile was plastered on her face.

“That would be great, I’ll call you,” She said. I nodded before walking out and driving home.