Niall's Princesses

Chapter 18 - Forever And Always

AN - Right so this is the last chapter and then an epilogue! Thankyou so much for over 7000 reads and over 200 votes! I never ever expected this many! The song on the side is Forever And Always by Parachute and I love this song so much and it fits really well with the chapter as you can probably guess by the title of the chapter.

The morning after seemed to drag on forever. The girls were currently at nursery and I was on my way to work. I still hadn’t spoken to Niall about the message or anything else to be honest. I didn’t know what I would say to him if I did talk to him. I’d have to talk to him eventually but I just wasn’t ready to at the moment.

Niall’s P.O.V

I needed to talk to her, she wasn’t going to call me back and I had kind of accepted that by now but that didn’t change the fact that I needed to talk to her. What I was planning on doing was completely crazy and could just go terribly wrong but I had to give it a try, it was the least I could do. Especially if it was the only chance I had of getting her to talk to me. She didn’t understand how sorry I was, everything I said to her in that message I left I meant 100%. I hadn’t planned on things ending up like this. Ever since I found out I started planning things out to make things perfect just like I knew we both wanted but like normal, stupid me had messed that up.

Since the first time Harry introduced her to us I had always wanted things in my future to be perfect and that perfection included her being there. No one knew the things I had kept hidden in my head about how I had planned things out and I knew if people did know they’d probably laugh in my face at how opposite things ended up. None of this was in my plans though. Not even what happened over 4 years ago I had planned. I never meant to break her heart and leave her in the position she was left in. I did it for her, I saw how much the hate affected her, I knew how much it hurt her never being able to come and see me on tour and seeing as I was away for most of the year that kind of sucked. She deserved someone who could be there for her all the time and not have to survive off phone calls that she didn’t always get the chance to answer. She deserved someone who she could talk to whenever she needed to and not be on the other side of the world to the person she loved. I did it all for her, I didn’t want things to end like this. I had never got over her properly but I thought she would’ve moved on and could still have a happy life without me in it. But once again I had messed things up. If I would’ve had any idea what she was going through I would’ve jumped back at the chance to make everything better and I guess now that I knew everything I wanted to do that now but maybe I’d messed up too many times by now.

I’d spent too long sitting around thinking things over in my mind; it was driving me insane. I had to see her but if I went round to hers she’d just slam the door in my face. I needed to see her somewhere that she couldn’t just completely ignore me. I couldn’t just arrange that with her though seeing as she was ignoring me at the moment so I needed to think of something, and fast. I needed to smooth things out before things got even worse from the time we had spent mad at each other.

I sorted a plan in my head and had to quickly put it into action. I just had to hope that it would work because it was the only idea I had of how to get her back – and I needed her back more than I needed oxygen to breathe. Fear ran through my mind as I thought about what might happen if things went wrong. What if she decided she wanted to get away from all this and took the girls away with her? What was I meant to do then? They were my main reason for living; no matter what the circumstance I would put my life on the line for them. They are my life.

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I slammed my hand down on the horn of the car to try and get the traffic to start moving again. I couldn’t get stuck in traffic; it would ruin everything. This was my only chance to win her back and it had to work for once and that meant me getting to her work before she would be leaving.