Repeat until death // Tubbo angst

Don't Forget Me.

I actually have more of the storyline thought out (I have the ending planned already too) so expect and new chapter every day, except maybe some days, who knows maybe you can get two chapters in one day on special occasions

Chapter 6,

Tw// Swearing, Death mentions, Suicidal thoughts, Self harm (Will put a * before it starts and a # after it ends)

~this is a timeskip to 2 weeks after what happened~

~Tubbos POV~

Here I am, standing in front of Tommy as he's about to walk out the front of his house for the last time.

Today is the day he's leaving, leaving me and everything else behind to go live with Wilbur in California. I mean at least he can also see Jack again, nobody's seen Jack in forever except Niki I think the one time she was over in the US for a little.

And then she moved back to Germany.

It's like every single person I know just slowly leaves, I don't really care anymore though.

I'm gonna die soon anyways.

The only person who I had left here was Tommy, but now he's leaving too.

I'm all alone, exactly what I aimed to not to be.

Tommy placed his two hands on my shoulders and shook me out of my thoughts.

"Well Tubs, guess this is it."

He took his hands off my shoulders, picked up his bags and looked at me with a sad smile on his face, (You know that kinda smile that's like their mouth is smiling slightly but their eyebrows are turned in)

I smiled at him, my eyes teared up and I did my best to hold them in.

I accidentally let a single tear fall when responding,

"Bye Tommy i'll miss you... more than you know"

He dropped his bags and pulled me into a tight hug, the type of hug I haven't had in years.

I felt him shake a little and realised he was crying, I finally let it out and we both just cried into each others arms.

Obviously the sight of this made our parents sad too as a saw a few tears from them.

As Tommy was finally about to walk out the door his Mom just broke down hugging him telling him how much she's going to miss him and how she wants him to call her every night before he goes to sleep, the usual protective Mom things.

Tommys Mom had to go to work so she left, my mom left too.

Tommy told me to come with him to the airport and obviously I accepted.

~Timeskip~

Tommy was at the boarding area, about to leave when I grabbed his arm to tell him one last thing.

"Yeah Tubs?" He asked still crying.

"Don't forget about me, I know we're bound to grow a bit apart since you will be so far away but after all we've been through, after everything I've done for you, all we've been through, don't leave me in the dust, don't abandon me please" I say breaking into sobs.

He starts crying more and hugs me again,

"I'll never abandon you, you're my best friend and i'll always be here for you."

We hug for a little and finally pull apart,

"Bye Tubs" Tommy says, silent tears rolling down his face.

"Bye Big man" I say through sobs.

He finally walks away, to his seat in the plane.

And that was it.

It finally sunk in.

My last interaction with Tommy.

My best friend of many years, many memories disintegrating as I watch his presence leave my life.

I watched him walk away knowing our friendship was going to slowly deteriorate as he met loads of new people, slowly talking to me less and less, not answering my texts, forgetting me.

Well I mean, if he drifts from me it'll be easier for him to take my death so i'll just let it happen, I don't want him to feel sad and grieve for a long time.

I don't even remember when I decided I was going to go through with it but I just feel like I will, so I constantly apply that to all my social situations, which isn't many.

It's actually one less since Tommy just left.

I walk with Tommys dad back to the car and just sit in sad silence on the way back, I could tell his dad was heartbroken too but just tried to keep a strong front on to avoid further upsettings.

I got back home and just laid on my bed staring at the ceiling, it feels like I just lost everything.

I think I actually did though.

I walk into the bathroom and look into the mirror, look down at the sink again thinking about whether or not to brush my teeth.

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That's when I saw it.

I saw one of my blades, I normally put them away so situations like this don't happen but I guess I forgot last time.

It always starts when you just think about it once, then you think about it too much and do it.

Just like right now,

1, turned into 2, which turned into 3 then quickly became 15, it would've been more if I didn't hear footsteps coming up the stairs.

I quickly jumped into my bed with tissue wrapped around my arm to stop it from bleeding onto my bedsheets.

Shit, when my mom comes in she's gonna want to give me a hug so i'll just pretend i'm asleep so she doesn't see.

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My Mom entered my room and saw me "sleeping" she gave me a quick kiss on the forehead then left my room.

After I thought she was asleep I cleaned the bathroom and actually went to sleep for real.

Yayyyy actual angst finally cuz ik this is an angst story but like I said last chapter I don't wanna put too much angst and ruin the plot, ly all stay safe <3 Dm me if you need to talk, i'm here for everyone.

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