Unbelieveable

Chapter 18- I feel really bad

Chapter 18- I feel really bad
Nicki

Like I can't get over what he said to me. I didn't mean to leave it just happened it wasn't my fault was it. As I went to go look at him and wondered this all can't be my fault nope, he's just trying to get me to leave. Yeah but I'm not going anywhere so I'll just stay right here. So I crawled on the bed and told him to move over. He looked at me and just laid there not moving at all and I said I'm not leaving so scoot over. He looked at me and didn't move so I pushed him so there was room for me to lie down but it was hard because he was heavy so I just tried to fit on the bed with the space that was left. He turned on his side so he wasn't facing me and he was facing the wall. There was more room now so I had more room on the bed so I just laid on it and started humming a tune just so I could get him to talk. He was slightly snoring but I think he was faking so I started singing peaches and cream by 112 it was our favorite song together when we were younger. I was just about to sing the third verse but then he came and hit me in the head with a pillow and said shut up I'm not talking you. So I started to hit him with the pillow again over and over until he tried to stop. Finally he tried to grab the pillow from me but I kept a good grip on it until we were basically having a tug a war match. I kept tugging on the pillow I was on top of him because I had to keep a grip on the pillow and he was pretty strong but I wasn't giving up that easy. I was too weak and finally he got the pillow and through it on the floor and pushed myself off of him and got up and went to the bathroom and closed the door. I got up to follow him and when I went to go open the door it was locked. So I shouted I'm not leaving until you talk to me and I went to sit on the bed. My phone started ringing and I answered it and it was my mom telling she had to go to the doctor and that she wouldn't be able to watch RJ and I needed to come home. So I made my way out the house but before I left shouted I'll be back and left out the door.
Chris

Nicki was annoying the fuck out of me so I went into the bathroom and turned on the shower just to make sure if she started to talk again. I wouldn't be able to hear her. I just wanted to be alone and deal with all of my issues by myself besides it was my fault I was in this mess in the first place. I just didn't want to be anything once my mom passed away. Then I lost my girl to another guy. Then my next girl left me for my ex girl because they fell in love after a threesome that was my idea. I can't believe that shit it was crazy but they still let me hit whenever I want to though so that's a plus. I heard Nicki leave so I turned off the shower and went back to lying on my bed and pulled out this blunt that was on my nightstand. I lit it and started to smoke. I started to fall asleep and then I started dreaming about the day I found out my mom died. I was just waking up on a Saturday morning so I made myself some cereal then I went to go check on my mom. She was feeling a little sick but I thought it was just a cold. So I went into her room to wake her up but when I touched her skin was ice cold and she wasn't responding to me when I shook her or called her name so I called 911 and they told me she was gone. I couldn't believe it they took her to the hospital where they did the autopsy at and they said it was a heart attack and she died in her sleep. That was the worst day ever then the next day was the day I graduated from high school and I didn't the want to go but my aunt Christine made me go. My family and friends tried to cheer me up but nothing helped I was still sad I didn't even get to tell her I loved her. I couldn't take it that was the worst day ever I thought then a few weeks later I caught my girlfriend Angela with my friend drake together. This was some bullshit it didn't make no sense she was with him who was always jealous of me because everybody knew I was the baddest dope boy out here. So then I just focused on building my empire which sucked for drake because I basically took his connect, the people that worked for him turned his girl into a lunatic because she came to me crying talking about how she was so sorry she left me and then she wanted another chance after what happened to drake for everything he got then left him handicapped because I shot in both of his legs off just because I wanted to. Anyway back to Angela she came to my house crying and in so much pain because drake was beating her ass and she wanted me to save her and help her ease the pain. So I gave her some of this blunt but it was mixed with coke but it was a bad batch so that was bad for her now she on streets talking but the sky is purple and the man is after me oh well she's all fucked up and lost. She wasn't even that cute anyway. She was a lost cause anyway but that's enough dreaming about the past and I woke up and started to play some music just to get these thoughts out of mind but I was interrupted to Nicki walking back into my room with her son in her arms saying see I'll told you I'll be back and I just looked her and thought I guess I might else as well play along since she's here.