(an example situation where I am thinking about patting my friend on the back after they do a good job at something.)( Also Virgil is the personification of anxiety so that's why the sides are there.)
I should congratulate them, I could pat them on the back.
How would I feel if they did that to me?
Well I would be fine with it.
But then again, we are different people. We are individuals, we have different opinions.
They seemed fine with it when I pat them on the back last time.
But maybe they were actually very uncomfortable but didn't want to show it.
Or maybe they think that I've been using them and aren't actually their friend and this little extra bit of touchiness proves that to them.
Or maybe they have a crush on me and I am just accidentally leading them on, I don't want to do that.
Ok, maybe a high five would be better.
Wait no, they have to carry back the supplies so they wouldn't be able to hit my hand and it would just be even more awkward.
Maybe because they'll be holding stuff I could help them?
But that stuff looks fragile, I would probably trip, fall, and break everything. Then there would be a huge mess and that would just be more work for everyone else.
Or maybe they'll think I'm horrible and unhelpful because I didn't offer to help them.
UGGHH!!
Wait they're about to walk past!!
What do I do, what do I do, what do I do, what do I do, what do I do, what do I do, what do I do, what do I do, what do I do, what do I doooooooo.
ACK!
put on a smile, don't look distressed.
"Good job :)"
Oh, they didn't acknowledge me.
Are they mad at me, or was I too quiet?
Maybe because they didn't hear me they'll think I didn't say anything and that I don't care or that I wasn't paying attention.
. . .
Wait, shit! It's my turn!
This has been a brief example of my Wonderful anxiety!
