(🎵I'm coming out of my cage and I've been doing just fine.🎶)
So I just kind of randomly got a burst of courage (right after the thought of maybe being lesbian popped into my head and was freaking out) and walked up to Ian and came out, this is what happened. Also it was like 11:50pm and I was kind of nervous.
"What would you do if I said that I liked... Girls."
"Uhh, idk. I wouldn't really mind or anything, I mean (Says 'it is what it is' in Spanish)"
*Laughs*
"Because I'm pretty sure I do..."
"Okay than. The only downside I see to this is that I won't be able to punch your future boyfriend if he's a jackass if you don't have one."
"Well, I think I like guys to so. Maybe bi."
"But than again tonight I've kind of been having a sexuality crisis bc, what if I'm actually straight and this is just a phase. Because I have a lot of bi friends and maybe they have just exposed me to some stuff that made me think I was too, or maybe I'm actually lesbian. And my first ligitimate crush on a girl was at girls camp just a while ago."
"Yeah, I don't think your like this but I know that there are some girls in my grade that say that just for attention, like as a trend."
"Yeah..."
"I actually kind of thought you already knew."
"Uh,Not really, *pulls out list on phone of inventions and 3-d prints and such that he wants to make* this is pretty much like the only thing I'm focused on, heh."
"Haha, yeah..."
*Awkward silence*
*Random laughter*
"Ok then..."
"Ok."
"Well, we should probably get to bed now."
"I think I'll stay up a bit later but, goodnight."
"Ok, goodnight Ian."
(Me just now kind of realizing how life changing this is. I'm actually so glad he reacted that way.)
(He jokingly refers to my sexuality as "whatever you are" bc I don't even know rn. I know I'm not straight, I'm trying to figure out if I am actually attracted to guys or not.)
