The main thing keeping me going right now is my daydreams. Because when I daydream, anything can happen!
From myself becoming famous or achieving something amazing, to fantasy worlds and the characters in them, to just random little dreams that seem interesting at the time. I like to create my own endings to movies, TV shows and books inside my head, therefore the story never ends. It's free, easy, interesting and I am in complete control of what happens. Really cheers you up in a crap lesson as well. Scarlett isn't much of a daydreamer. She's more of a do-er than anything. Amazing, actually, that she can do almost anything she sets her mind to. Just last month, she told herself and me that she was going to learn to play the 'cello (so we could start a classical chamber). She is now practicing for her grade one exam. Scary.
The only thing I have ever set my mind to is ice skating. I went a few times with Emelia, Matt and Annie and since then I have developed my passion for the sport. I started taking figure skating lessons about a year ago and I am currently practicing for my level 5 skill award. Why did I take it so seriously? Because I love it. It makes me feel free, graceful and beautiful- things I don't feel at many other times in my life. I can take the things I learn and turn them into a beautiful display of skill and passion, and its mine. It's my own personal part of life, which nobody else has and not many people see. I own it. I sometimes dream about becoming an Olympic level figure skater, but I honestly don't see it happening. My friends all have their own dreams, some have bigger dreams than others. All I know is, I couldn't survive without them. Being alone scares me. Although I don't really have a friend group, I seem to be friends with almost everyone. I spend most my time with the people I sit with for lunch, but if I had to I could talk to anyone else in my year. People don't scare me.
Carly has always been shy around people she doesn't know, ever since we first met thirteen years ago. Her light brown hair used to be tied back constantly, blue eyes cast down as she walked past people. Yet since we started secondary school, she became very popular and she talks to everyone at our school. I think it's heightened her confidence in herself. She definitely deserves to be popular, everyone needs to see how gorgeous she is throughout. Liam even had a crush on her for a year or so. He probably still does, although he denies and says he is over it. Kai still teases him about that. Kai is the main reason Carly's confidence has grown, I think, because Kai befriended Carly early in year seven. Kai is extremely outgoing, she talks to everyone she meets. Being the blonde beauty she is, her sweetness made her an instant queen. Court centre. Along with Carly and Kai, Naomi is the third ruling queen in our year. You barely even have to look at Naomi to know that she is special. Her deep, long brown hair, tanned skin, beautiful big brown eyes and perfect figure put her in the spotlight. If she wasn't one of the kindest, sweetest and funniest people I have ever met then I would probably hate her. She's the kind of girl you know will be famous someday. Beauty like that can't be hidden.
My main group at the moment is a mixture of different people. Kathy is strange... She says things that would confuse anyone that doesn't know her well. But she also understands me quite well. I like that. Her brown, wavy hair is always on an effortlessly perfect side-parting, and her brown eyes are full of light and happiness. When we sit in the sunlight, she makes jokes about how her own skin looks green sometimes. It's just tanned enough that with the right lighting, she has the chance to pretend that she is Shrek. Strange girl. Emelia used to be extremely shy. Nobody knows what it is that's done it, but she is very open with her friends nowadays. I started making a list called ' strange things Emelia does' based on the random moments she has us all in hysterics by doing and saying strange things. Her big brown eyes are always full of glee. Ellie understands my humour. As a fellow lover of youtubers, she makes remarks that make me and Annie laugh, whilst confusing everybody else. Her blonde hair is a source of fascination to me, in the way it's just effortlessly done. Annie understands me. She likes many of the things that I do, and she generally knows me. I feel as if she gets to know her friends on deep levels, the same way that I do. Her curly black hair is a source of jealousy for me. I wish I had her hair. Matt is my best friend. I wish he could be in all my lessons, just to make things easier for myself. He is in the year above me at our school (first year of sixth form), and we met just over 4 years ago in a samba group that Chrissie dragged me to. I find it fascinating talking to him, he has some sort of superpower that allows me to talk without being afraid. I can tell him anything. I have told him everything. It kills me that his life isn't always easy, but he copes well. Despite his being older than me, I feel strangely protective towards him. A guy in my form was saying some stuff to him on Facebook a few months back. When Matt told me this, I got that guy suspended from school for a week. Nobody hurts Matt unless they want me involved.
My friends are everything to me. They provide the laughs and the smiles that remind me to forget the nightmares, forget the things that scare me. I couldn't survive without them. In the school version of Survival of the Fittest, it is definitely NOT every man for himself.
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School, Prejudice and Survival
Novela JuvenilThe life of teenager Indigo Jones is a unique one. And her new discovery about herself makes things so much harder. Will her friends, twin sister and Rules to Survival help her in this new, strange lifestyle?
