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(listen to favourite crime by olivia rodrigo for all the feels)
things had been rocky between us for a long while, four months to be exact.
we weren't that power couple anymore. we went from posting each other regularly, spending our nights cuddling on our couch or in our bed and planning our future together to rarely ever uploading a photo together, one of us sleeping in the spare room on some nights and rarely even talking without arguing; and i couldn't even tell myself why we ended up like this.
many things ran through my mind whenever our nights turned sour; had he find somebody else? was i not enough for him anymore? is our relationship gonna end? will these two years be a waste of our time? it was a natural reaction for me to prepare for him breaking up with me whenever we argued but i don't think i would ever be fully ready for the day it happens. it was as if i had all and then most of him, some and now none of him.
right now i was sat in our back garden, sat reading the book that brought me the most comfort on days like this; the sun was only just setting because of the summer weather but it was still a slight bit chilly but instead of wearing one of masons hoodies, i was wearing wearing my own. back when we were happy in each other's company he'd sit with me, his arms would be around my shoulders as i lay in between his legs whilst he played with the ends of my hair, me reading out loud because i knew he loved when i did that.
those were the good old days. the days when we could just be with each other and forget about the rest of the world when we both desperately needed it. mason always said that those were our glory days and it stuck; i had made it my saying because it always reminded me of him so on the days we were apart, and if it were nice weather, i'd text him and tell him its a glory day.
i'd never had had a romantic life, mason being my first true love; sure i had celebrity crushes and i had liked a couple of boys in my year at school but nothing that like that truly counted as love. when mason and i got together, i was scared. scared of the outcome of our relationship in case it didn't work out the way we would expect it to, scared in case i messed things up because i had zero experience when it came to dating and i was scared if he decided that i wasnt what he wanted anymore.
but he stayed through it all; the sleepless nights where i would be awake overthinking everything, the panic attacks, the highs and the lows, the bridges that we would have to cross together and all of our firsts. mason never rushed us or rushed me to do things that i weren't comfortable with yet and i appreciated him for that, so much. he was the only person that could make me laugh until tears were coming out of my ears and my stomach was cramping up, he reassured me when things got to overpowering and he loved me like i was the only person in the world. he loved me like there was no tomorrow and i loved him too. our love for one another was the biggest thing that kept us going, along with the trust and loyalty.
