honeysuckle

forty - six

9:15 pm

Himari was sitting in her dorm room contemplating on doing this but she went on deciding to do so. She sat there deciding to send messages back and forth with her mother who was barely in her life.

birth parent 😕

birth parent: hey sweetheart

himari: hey.

birth parent: it's been a while since we last talked

himari: yeah I know, how have you been?

birth parent: I've been doing better, you?

himari: I've been great.

birth parent: how is that boyfriend of yours? I remember you told me about him once but never talk about him again to me. you never let me even meet him

himari: ah? you are talking about tetsu? well he is doing well :) we deal with some complications sometimes but he is doing great.

birth parent: ...
birth parent: you sure everything is okay?

himari: hm yes? why you say that?

birth parent: just a feeling. that's all

himari: mom I have a question?

birth parent: yes?

himari: when you and dad were together how long did it take for you guys to start having kids or marriage?

birth parent: . . . we got married after two years, and we had you like five years into our marriage, why?

himari: I'm just thinking about tetsu and I been together for a ...long time and I was wondering when will we maybe get married and/or have kids

birth parent: getting married and having kids isn't a must when in a relationship

himari: but mom I want to marry him I know he is the one

birth parent: have you guys maybe talked about it or have you hinted it to him?

himari: PLENTY of times mom. but he just won't take the hint

birth parent: hmm maybe he isn't ready for it and also as I said you don't automatically have to get married just because you both been in a relationship that long. marriage in my eyes is beautiful but also basically I see it as a legal contract. now I'm not saying don't get married, if you want too then so be it. but don't think your life is over if you don't get married like the other girls.

himari: mhm ok.

himari: well I still feel marriage is right for us

birth parent: please don't force marriage on someone

himari: I'm not gonna force it when I know he wants to get married

birth parent: are you sure?

himari: very sure. I'm positive, I know him more than he know himself

birth parent: I know we may not have the best relationship but I do love you. but I will be honest I don't think marriage is the right move

himari: why not? I came to you for support and also we been together for so long at this point we should be. and I know dad would support me in this.

birth parent: years ≠ marriage. No matter how many years you've been dating, I feel if you guys don't have that thought in either of your heads of like I wanna be with that person forever regardless of anything then I feel neither of you are ready but also remember you both are in university too working on your careers. Don't rush and your father supports anything as long as it benefits him in the long run.

himari: that's rich coming from you! You and Dad's marriage didn't last that long so it must mean you guys didn't have that connection anymore hm?

birth parent: your father and I got married at the age of 25, and I didn't have you until I was 30 years old. Your father and I connection was severely strong to the point that even though we are divorced we can still understand one another's actions just by a glance. we lost love for one another but we still have a healthy connection still. And we get along even better because we came to terms of us wanting to be there for you growing up in life. We wanted to be good parents so you sitting here bashing me for atleast wanting you to work on your career or so or make sure your priorities are straight before going straight into marriage is beyond me.

himari: you were barely in my life

birth parent: let's not lie. you pushed me away as much as you could no matter how many times I tried to be the best mother for you

himari: no you're the liar. you were barely there for me

birth parent: if that's what you believe then so be it , I will not argue against your feelings. but I still stand by what I say above.

himari: talking to you was a mistake

birth parent: I still love you regardless of how you feel about me.

himari: goodbye.

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Himari groaned jumping down from her bed. She quickly grabbed her bag with her wallet or so. Her mind was racing with millions of thoughts currently as she abruptly left her dorm room to go catch the sub to the clinic. It seemed no one was listening to her, or answering her messages in her time of need. Especially her boyfriend.

He should be dropping everything to talk to her right now. She was precious and supposed to be everything in his eyes. But, apparently not.

She needed to talk with Tetsurou.