Falling By Chance

Chapter - 29

Oh God! I'm going to do it. Finally. Please God, let it all go smoothly. Please. I pray in my head nervous as hell. My thoughts are going haywire of all the possibilities that can happen.

Yes. I am finally going to put my hand in the devil's mouth. Not literally. What I mean is that I'm going to tell Jake, about my feelings. I can't hold it in anymore and it is becoming harder and harder to contain my love inside me like a really bad pee pressure. I need to get it out. Terrible analogy, I know, but you get the point.

So as decided, I'm doing all the preparations. Freya happily agreed to help me so we are getting the things ready. Today is Christmas eve and I'll be telling him tomorrow. So that is my reason for panicking. I hope everything goes well. Freya along with Bea and Abby both of whom joined us through FaceTime, got really got close to Freya as well. They are all currently giving me ideas on how to confess my love and instructions on how to get everything done. But right now they are giving me reasons to kill them all and commit homicide. I really love them all, I really really do, but ras of now not so much. All three of them are being the pain in my ass giving me absolutely horrible ideas and laughing it off of my misery.

"If you guys can't help then stop bothering me, I need to think of something okay! I'm already scared out of my wits and y'all are having a blasting time together at my state." I let out snapping at them my patience finally snapping. They all go dead silent as if I have literally killed them all with my words. I suddenly feel guilty for letting out my frustration on them.

"I'm sorry, I'm just very nervous for tomorrow. I didn't mean to yell at you guys." I let out a defeated sigh.

"Roxy, we understand. We were just trying to take your mind off of it. And there's absolutely nothing to worry about. We all know what he feels about you. Just tell him, The Roxy Way. Just tell him head on!" Abby smiles encouragingly at me, while Bea and Freya nod their head in approval.

"Tell who what?" Derek appears suddenly behind Bea and pulls her close to his chest. I internally aw at these two.

"Nothing. It's a secret. Girls' talk." Bea handles it and a throw her thankful look. She nods at me and smiles reassuringly.

"Umm... Okay..." Derek says still a bit unconvinced.

"Derek, babe, can you give us girls privacy? I need to talk to them about my period stuff and all. If you want you can join." Bea delivers the final blow thinking Derek will relent.

"Babe, seriously? As much as I'm okay with the concept of periods and don't think of it as a taboo like other "men" do, I have no interest in taking a part in your girls' talk and get the gory details of it." He sighs. Bea just chuckles at him amused. He kisses the side of her head and leaves.

"You surely know how to handle him." I snicker.

"Babe, he is pussy-whipped. It isn't a shocker really." Abby's comment makes us all lose it and laugh like maniacs. Bea on the other hand just rolls her eyes at our childish behaviour but a small smile plays at her lips.

Once our laughter subside, Bea speaks up, "You know what to do, Roxy. Don't hold yourself back. You deserve this. Just believe in yourself and like the strong Roxy I know, just wing it. We all can see that he worships you." She ends with an encouraging smile.

"Bea's right, Roxy. My brother really loves you it's just that he is too dense to realise it. Break off the clichès where the boy confesses first. It's much more romantic that way anyway and helps deliver a blow to men's ego. A total win-win situation." Freya smiles brightly at me.

They are right. I know that Jake feels something for me too. As strongly as I do for him. So maybe I'm just being paranoid. But why do I have this queasy feeling in my gut? I decide to ignore it blaming it on my overthinking.