This Is It.

Chapter 5 - The Beginning

You are going to be just fine. Nothing bad is going to happen to you. You are going to enjoy your journey. It does not matter which part. You are going to find yourself by yourself and that's okay. You don't need anyone's help. You'll be just fine.

I whispered to myself as I kept combing through my soot colored hair. I should probably do something new with it. Something to match with my next adventure but for now I'll just put these curls into a bun and get ready to leave.

Speaking about leaving, Jay entered the room without even knocking and asked me to come down for some breakfast before we leave.

"Hey bro, I know this is your crib and all of that but you should at least knock." I suggested while putting my combs into the bag. 

"Oh yeah flip. I'm sorry B. I'm just...I swear I didn't mean to make you angry or anything I just-"

" Oh Jayjay it's fine. It's not that deep. Come on." 

We were now making our way downstairs. I wonder where his parents are. After what happened last night surely they did not have a goodnight. I didn't want to leave without saying goodbye to them. More especially Jenny. She has always welcomed me in this huge house. It surely did not feel like home and I'm glad for that.

"So dad has gone to work and mom went to meet some of our relatives with the twins. It's just the two of us."

Just the two of us? My eyes roamed around the house in search. I really hoped to see the twins before I leave. No one is here. My family, Jay's family and even Jay himself. Why do I feel like I'm left alone? Like everyone else sees that I'm never going to reach my goals but me. Like they are leaving me to make my own decisions so they won't get involved.

I'm facing one of the biggest moments in my life, alone. This is not going to work. Never.

I felt my body shaking and wondered what was going on.

"Where were you?" What does that even mean? We are right next to each other.

"Standing right here Jaden are you blind?"

"Well I've been trying to get your attention for about a minute now and it seems like you... I don't know zoned out and you were staring intensely at, nothing."  Jay reasoned as he looked at me up and down. That made me feel guilty of I don't even know what.

"I was just trying to remember if I have packed everything you know. I don't want to leave anything behind."

" seems like you're never coming back" He suddenly made noise by opening and closing pots to check for food and I couldn't clearly hear what he said.

"Pardon me."

"I was just asking what you want for breakfast."  Oh, that's all. That's not what I expected. I thought he said something else.

"Bread, eggs, bacon and some green salad please. I haven't had that since the last time your mom made it."  I laughed

"I remember that day. We came back from school and attempted to take a nap on the couch. We ended up sleeping the entire afternoon and night. We woke up the next day hungry as hell and my mom thought we were dead or something. She prepared loads of food and a massive chunk of green salad just for us."  He started laughing so much, he wept.