This Is It.

Chapter 12

Jaiden's pov

Four days into my holiday and I'm still thinking about what Bianca did. My mind was running wild from all the overthinking.

Firstly, she asked me if I was in a relationship with obviously, Leesah. Invited my brother to my studio. Introduced him to me as my 'lookalike'. He greeted me without clearing shit up. I was so confused. I should have known that they could possibly know each other.

I heard my front door open and I admired the bravery of whoever that was. "Hey, G." It was my sister Jaiden. "This is my house G. Learn to knock," I teased her. "Anyway back to more serious matters. It was Jayden," I said. "Wait, our Jayden?" She asked and I just nodded. "Do you think she knows that we're actually siblings?"

"No I don't think she does. Hell she still think I'm a 'Moreau' chile!" I shook my head. "So why are you so bothered by this. Is it because youuuu-?"

"I what?" I said looking at her like she was a madman. "You know. Because youuu lieeeek herrr?" She burst out laughing.

"I don't remember telling you that. I don't like her. I just feel like with her here, a lot of things are going to change, for worse. My intuition is not at ease."

"Oh don't start with your spiritual madness. Please. Don't creep me out."

"I think I should invite him here sometime. Apparently he's staying with her. That means he is still around."

"Yeah that would be great. I will bring the kids. Cool?"

"Yeah that's cool."

"And tell that girl you like her before your little brother sweeps her off her feet G. I'm out."

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"I'm glad you came. Thank you."

Bianca sent me a text saying she needed the keys to the studio and I could not let her go alone during the holidays so I just decided to tag along.

She was still stuck on choosing colors for he painting because apparently my phone kept disturbing her.

"Again? Can't you like switch it off?"

"It's this questions app that someone installed in my phone. Maybe I should actually."

"Oh, what type of questions?"

"Like get to know each other type."

"Oh, maybe we should you know...play that game. Remove all the negative energy surrounding us. It's just a suggestion?"

"Okay. You start." I could not even believe that I agreed to that but it just felt so right. Like the most normal thing ever.

"Do you have kids?"

"No. I don't have kids. None at all," I said. "It's just that I heard you talking about twins the other day and I just thought maybe you did."

"Why are you so sensitive? I'm moving on now."

"Already getting personal now are we. I just can't control my emotions sometimes and I get triggered easily do yeah."

"That's interesting. Your turn."

"Okay, do you hate me?" I should have been prepared for that one but I was not. It really caught me off guard but I was not going to show it. "No, not really. You just get on my nerves a lot. Now, my turn. What's your zodiac?"  I changed the topic.

"Take a wild guess. Hint: Fire."

"Woah! I fall under the fire signs too. It definitely has to be Aries, Sagittarius or Leo."

"What a coincidence! I'm a sagittarius. You really seem like an aries though."

"That I am."

"Okay, okay. My turn. Your favorite quote?"

"Oh, and I quote ' train your mind to be stronger than your emotions or else you'll lose yourself everytime.'"

"That really sounds like you. Fits your personality," she said as a matter of fact. "And what's my personality like?"

"I've spent a lot of time thinking about that actually. The one observation that stands out for me is, you're scared. I don't what are you afraid of but you're just not letting it go. Except for when you're dancing or painting.  All of your paintings show some sort of melancholy. It bothers me a lot that such an amazing person would just be so empty," she breathed out. What surprised me the most is that she was actually crying. Like this whole things meant a lot to her and she though about it alot.

"I just felt like saying it anyway because you're so unpredictable. So just in case you fire me from my job. You will know how I really feel about you."

I honestly did not think that my behavior affected her that much. I felt terrible for making her feel like that. I felt like shit.

"You're right I am scared. Afraid, call it whatever," I blurted out. "Why are you afraid? I'm afraid of you here. You make my life a living hell!" Hearing her scream at me just changed something in my mind.

"Because you're making me feel things I've never felt before damnit. Things I've never been interested in before," I admitted. "Things like what?"

"Like talking, this," I pointed to the both of us. "I always want to talk when I'm with you. I feel every emotion. I want to be near you but I also don't.  I want to get to know you. It's crazy," I growled with tightness in my voice.

"Then why do you treat me like garbage man! You do it everytime. I'm telling you after this conversation, me and you will definitely argue. Watch it." Well she was already screaming at me.

"Because I don't want you near me? I don't. I don't like you. I've never even thought about it. So from now on, I'm going to be civil towards you. Better?"

"You don't like me? You just said 'you make me feel things' what the hell? What is wrong with you? Are you crazy!!"

"A hundred percent sane. Listen this never happened okay? We're strictly colleagues. And stop bringing your headless friends to come meet me. I didn't like that. I'm leaving."

"How old are you? You're so confusing!! You're acting like I have been leading you on. It's fine anyway. I don't care anymore. I tried with you. You will die alone with your demons."

"Says a person who can't control her anxiety, stupid. Leave!"

"I know what I want!"

"I HAVE want I want. I own it. It's all mine. How about that?" 

"I don't understand you. What is wrong with you?"

"That's it Bianca. This is who I am. Nothing special. Take me as I am or let me go and I'll let you be."