Sadyang Mapaglaro Ang Tadhana (Feeble Love #2)

Prologue

Yes.

I fucking cheated on her.

"The fuck bro!" Mark punched my face. I wiped my face as I saw drop of blood on it.

Inaawat na siya ngayon nila Jason. I remained calm as if it did not hurt me at all. He was very furious, but it is reasonable. He like Therese for a long time. He gave up knowing that I can be more deserving. And that was the worst belief that he made.

"I am going to kill you! Let me go--"

I glared at him coldly. I am giving him the permission to kill me, but not now. Mabilis ang mga hakbang ko palabas ng building. I just want to get out of it but my conscience won't let me.

I guess this was really what they called 'karma.'

Nakita ko na lang ang sarili ko na nasa tapat ng building ng Psychology department. I know exactly what would happened. Hindi na maibabalik ang ginawa ko. I'm an asshole. I hurt her. But still, I would to attempt, for the last time.

There, on the corridor I saw Therese on her usual look. Damn she was like an angel.

And I was a demon. At the first place, I learn already that this relationship will never work. It was all my fault.

"Therese." I said but it was more like a plead.

Just like the old times, she ignored me. Para akong hangin lang na dinaanan niya.

She was so cold. She was too hard to... understand. Hindi ko alam kung anong naiisip niya ngayon and it was killing me already! Even when we she found out that I cheated, it did not affect her at all. Parang wala siyang pakialam.

And I knew, I was the reason of her change.

Mabilis akong sumunod sa kanya. I tried to hold her but she swerved, as if she saw it coming. Sa huli ay hinarap niya ako.

"Bab-e." Natatakot na ani ko. Damn I never I thought I would be this scared in my whole life.

Her dark brown eyes was telling me something that I can't recognize. Her red lips was in grim line... I know she want to say something. Please shout on me, hurt me... just please bring out your emotions on me.

She was pretty inside and out. She has a heart of gold, something that everyone loved about her. Everything about her was beautiful. And it was perfect.

"I have class today. We can talk... later." Malumanay na ani niya, hindi siya makatingin sa akin ngayon.

I understand. Maiintindihan ko kung magalit siya sa akin, kung mandidiri siya at kung ipagtabuyan niya pa ako. Pero hinding hindi ako aalis. Hindi ko hahayaan na mawala siya sa akin. Hindi ko kaya...

"Okay. I'll wait for you hmm." Ani ko pero tumango lamang siya. Mabilis siyang umalis sa harap ko at naiwan lamang ako roon.

I am true to my words. I waited. 1 hour have passed. She's still not here. Tumingin ako sa relo ko, siguro palabas na iyon ngayon. Marami na din ang lumalabas kaya pumunta na lang ako malapit sa gate para masalubong siya. But 3 hours later, wala pa rin siya. Magsasarado na ang building... imposible namang nasa loob pa siya.

"Excuse me, guard."

"Can I come in? H-indi pa kasi lumalabas ang girlfriend ko."

Tiningnan niya ako simula sapatos hanggang tumigil siya sa mukha ko. Kumunot ang noo niya.

"Naku Sir, wala na pong tao sa loob." simpleng sambit niya.

I sighed. The hallway was dark already. Sarado na rin ang mga pinto ng room. Bakit hindi ko nakitang lumabas siya?

Dahan dahan akong humakbang patalikod. I opened my phone and saw how it began to beeped. Random text and missed calls popped up. Walang galing kay Therese kaya hindi ko na inisa-isa pa.
The recent was from Jayson.

Jason:

You missed the quiz.

I sighed. That was my least concerned. But then it still bothered me. I am hoping to graduate this year in law school. I don't want to missed that, nevertheless Therese is more important to me right now.

Absentmindedly, I drove myself at home. I still can't reach Therese. Fuck! This is driving me insane.

I opened my condo and it was empty. It drained me more when I realized her things was not there anymore. She was here.

Mabilis akong lumabas ng unit ko. Baka sakaling maabutan pa siya. Pero wala. Hindi ko na naabutan ang elavator kaya mabilis akong bumaba gamit ang hagdan.

"Therese!" Sigaw ko. I know I'm desperate. Tinitingnan na ako ng mga tao pero hindi ko iyon pinansin.

Kumunot ang noo ko nang mapansin ang babaeng nakatalikod. Mabilis akong humakbang palapit sa kanya.

"Ther--

"Ano ba!"

I was wrong. It was not Therese. Nababaliw na nga ata ako. Lahat ng nakakasalubong ko ay nakikita ko ang mukha niya. Isa na lang ang paraan para makausap ko siya.

Pagkababa ko ng sasakyan agad akong inawat ng mga gwardiya.

"Parang awa niyo na! Gusto ko lang makausap si Therese." Nagpupumiglas na sambit ko.

"I n-eed to talk to my girlfriend." Mabilis kong nasuntok ang isang umawat sa akin.

I was breathing heavily when the large black gate automatically opened. Mabilis mga hakbang na ginawa ko para makalapit.

"Tit-o. I need to talk to your --"

Hindi pa ako nakakatapos ay malakas niya na akong sinuntok. Napahawak ako sa mukha ko at nakita iyon na dumudugo na naman. I deserve this.

"Therese. I n-eed to talk to her Tito. Please--

"What for!?" Malakas ang sigaw niya sa mukha ko.

I can saw anger on his face. Alam ko na kasalanan ko ang lahat. I am miserable because of me. Tanggap ko rin ang mga salita at bugbog na ibibigay nila sa akin. Tatangapin ko iyon. Pero hindi ko matatangap na mawala sa akin ang babaeng mahal ko.

I'm selfish I know. I can't just let her go. I will not let that happened. May plano kaming dalawa, may pangarap pa kami...

"Pagkatapos ng ginawa mo sa anak ko? You cheated on her! Can you hear me? You cheated on her!! That was the biggest insult to my daughter! How dare you treat her like that!"

Napayuko ako. Right, I cheated on her.

"You know what? It was a mistake that I trusted you. Magiging abogado ka pa naman. Disgusting fucking cheater!"

Hindi na ako makatingin pa sakanya. I remember one of the cases that he mentioned. The lawyer that cheated on her wife that eventually got disbarred. Nakikita niya ako roon at alam kong ngayon, pinandidirian nila ako.

One mistake and everyone judges you.

Right. I am willing to accept their judgemental opinion. I won't care. I would disguise as if it won't impact me. As long as Therese would still accepts...

"Why are you doing this? Can you justify your action? You can't say you love her when in fact you cheated! Oh I can see one reason."

"Your conscience. Kahit papaano meron ka pa naman." His eyes was bloodshot just like mine. I was too weak to say something. Alam ko dahil lahat ng sinasabi ni Tito ay natatamaan ako.

"Stop this mess already. Therese. She's on her way to America. And would any longer come back."

Napaluhod ako nang marinig iyon. That's when my entire life wrecked into pieces. Drowning to my own river of tears, I deserve this.

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