𝐚𝐛𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 , 𝗌𝗅𝖾𝖾𝗉𝗒 𝖻𝗈𝗒𝗌 𝗂𝗇𝖼

busy

trigger warning . neglect , shouting , degrading

word count . 4714

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tommy was eagerly waiting on his bed for tubbo's phone call to let him know that he was downstairs and ready to pick tommy up so that they could hang out. he had gotten up super early because he was so happy, it was now 2pm. he soon got a phone call from tubbo, "hi tubso! i'm so excited to hang out, are you downstairs?" he questioned excitedly.

"hey tommy! about us hanging out...i can't today" tubbo informed in a sad toned.

"oh, why not?" tommy questioned, his smile dropping.

"some family issues came up and I need to go out of town, i'm so sorry" he replied in an apologetic tone.

"tubbo, its ok!" tommy reassured, hearing the upset of his best friend, "i hope everything gets better" he wished in a comforting voice, "me too" tubbo muttered.

"call me if you need to talk shit out, i'm here" he reminded, "thank you toms" tubbo said in a slightly happier tone, "take care of yourself tubs, bye" tommy ended the phone call with tubbo and threw his phone onto the bedside table next to him. he soon got the idea to ask his brothers if they wanted to hang out because he had nothing to do. tommy made his way out of his room and towards wilbur's

he knocked on the door and patiently waited for an answer, "come in!" tommy opened the door and poked his head inside. will turned around from his desk and towards the door, the small smile on his face immediately dropping after seeing tommy

"do you wanna hang out? i'm-" before tommy could finish, wilbur rudely interrupted, "oh my god! no! get the fuck out gremlin, annoy techno or something" wilbur groaned.

"right, sorry" tommy apologised, closing will's bedroom door and walked over to techno's, knocking as well, "come in" techno's voice said through the door.

tommy deeply sighed and walked inside, "hey tech, uh do you wanna hang out?" he question hopefully.

techno laughed loudly, "i have more important things to be doing rather than hanging out with a loser and nerd like you" he rolled his eyes, turning his attention back to his computer screen"

tommy nodded and closed techno's bedroom door. after a lot of contemplating, he decided to ask phil. he walked into phil's office, "daaaad" he whined playfully.

"oh my god tommy. i'm really busy right now, can you go be annoying somewhere else? i really don't have time for your silly business right now" the older, blond male snapped. tommy's self esteem was now crushed.

without saying anything, tommy walked out of the office and closed the door behind him. he walked into his room, grabbed his phone and then ran out the door. with many thoughts rushing through his head, he ran as far as his legs could take him.

why do they hate me so much?

am i really that much of a bad person?

what can i do to make them not hate me?

what am i doing wrong?

should i change my personality?

should i be more quiet?

not talk as much?

tommy soon found himself on top of a hill. he collapsed onto the grass, due to the exhaustion, and started uncontrollably sobbing. after a few months of bottling things up, the cork had finally been taking off. tommy curled into a little ball and continued crying.