𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴 // 𝘥𝘸

𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘺 𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘦

𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘢 𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘦

I jumped around and spun around as I let the music take over my mind. Why does music always just cure everything. I grabbed my hair brush and began singing to I always knew by the Vaccines.

I was home alone so that meant underwear dance party. I took off my over sized shirt and shorts and began just dancing everywhere around the house as the music blasted loudly throughout it.

I stood up on the couch and continued singing like if it was a stage or somethin'.

"Well isn't this a way to start my day" James smiled and stood there looking all cute.

"Good afternoon" I smiled and kissed him.

"You're having a dance party without me? Stab in the heart" he put his hand over his heart all dramatically.

"You can join next time" I giggled softly

"Good afternoon baby" he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me softly. "Do you work today?" He asked me

"Nope, I got it off after 3 weeks. Anyway, what you wanna do?" I asked him

"I don't know I don't have a plan today" I gasped

"James Christopher Garrison! This is not my man it's an imposta! Who is you?" He laughed and kissed me

"I was thinking of doing something else...something we haven't done yet" he bit his lip softly, I put my hand in his and led him to the couch.

"The fact that I stopped having sex for you is a big commitment so I haven't had dick in a long time"

"So you're like ready ready" I sat on top of him and felt his hands on my waist.

"Been ready" I kissed him. I kept kissing him, I even started grinding on him but I don't know I think something was wrong with me cause I wasn't fucking turned on. I kept telling myself maybe if we keep going a little further and we keep making out, I'll get turned on or something.

He was definitely turned on. I could feel him but I wasn't. Me? Not turned on? It just pisses me off he's my boyfriend! He's supposed to turn me on and he's doing everything right I just can't flip the switch.

Maybe it was just the moment, it was unexpected and I wasn't thinking about it before. I kept thinking about people and things that turned me on all the time...it kinda worked but it just made me take his shirt off and undo his belt.

That's a step.

He laid down and I began grinding on him, he his eyes rolled back but it wasn't working for me like it usually does. He started pulling down his jeans along with his boxers and I well I was just not in the mood but I really wanted to! I wasn't horny but I really wanted sex.

Maybe if I just get in the moment you know like suck his dick or something? That's what I did but you know I still felt nothing, I'm usually not like this. He kept moaning and groaning but not even that was working. I'm just concerned at this point.

Maybe if I just ride him.... Maybe? He's literally perfect. I took off my panties and bra and sat on top of him. I bit my lip softly feeling a bit of fucking pain but it's fine. I kissed him and kept thinking about my past hook ups and how I got turned on then.

New York hook ups. Tulsa hook ups. I tried digging deeper into my mind and I thought about Dallas.

"Fuck" I moaned softly and bit my lip. I remembered how he touched me, it was working.

It wasn't a good thing though, I'm thinking about Dallas as I'm fucking James? I tried ignoring the thought of Dallas pleasing me but that was the only thing that was giving me the feeling to keep going.

When we finished, I felt guilty. He was satisfied, I wasn't.

"Let's go to your room, I feel like anyone can just come in" He chuckled softly and put on his boxers to go to my room. I felt so horrible. I picked up my undergarments and walked to my room. He was sleeping on the bed. I put on a my t-shirt and heard the front door open.

I put on my panties and shorts to see who it was and it was Steve coming back from work. Was it that late? 6:30? That really took a while. Like an hour or something.

"Hey Steve" I grinned softly and sat on the chair. He looked at me weirdly and kept sniffing the air.

"Smells like sex, holy shit you and James finally fucked"

"This is gonna be a weird conversation to have with your brother but it's necessary." I sighed and looked down feeling guilty.

"Did you cheat on James?!" He yelled loudly

"No! Of course not! Shut up he's sleeping....I wouldn't cheat on him. He far too perfect to be cheated on."

"Okay then what's the problem?" He took out a beer from the fridge and began drinking it.

"I wasn't----turned on" he spit the beer and laughed loudly.

"Yeah right that will be the day! Sure funny joke" he shook his head and kept drinking his beer.

"Steve I'm not lying, I couldn't--You know. God this fucking weird but I couldn't fucking get...horny"

"But he's your boyfriend"

"Exactly." His eyes widened and he took another sip of his beer.

"But you get turned on by literally everything, someone can yell at you and tell you off and you will be like I want to suck you're dick like that's how you are." He went to the cabinet and grabbed some pretzels, I ate some too.

"I know!"

"Wait then how did you.....you know get turned on?" He chuckled softly "can't believe we are talking about this"

"I'm not lying steve, I tried everything. I was like if we go further I will..."

"Did it work?"

"No" I mumbled and groaned annoyed and disappointed in myself "he's such a good guy, I love him I really do but then I started thinking about all my hook ups and how I got turned on then....none of that worked but then my mind wandered off and thought about this one hook up with this one guy and I guess you know what
happened when I thought about that one guy"

"Holy shit you mentally cheated on James"

"No i didn't" I rolled my eyes and kept eating

"You thought about someone else and it worked. Just saying...."

"I'm such a bad person for this" I put my face in my hands and tried to not freak out.

"You're just into someone else, well I'm going to go to the Curtis house, have fun with your boyfriend" he chuckled softly

"Oh fuck you"

"Ahhhahahaha! Get it you can't have fun cause you- ahahaha! You can't do it!" He laughed loudly, I rolled my eyes

"Ha. Ha. I'm pissing my pants. Leave asshole"

"You can't fuck!" I pushed him out the door and kept hearing him laugh his ass off to his car.

And this is why I don't tell Steve ANYTHING!