The siren and her Mate

chapter 6

I Woke up this morning two hours before i needed to get up. I didnt get much sleep last night because of jesse and his friend but i made the best of it and did what i had to do and tried to sleep. So when i got up this morning i figured i could do some laps around the track Blake tooken me to. I threw on a pair of shorts and a tank top and went down stairs grabbed a bottle of water and went to the backyard. When i got out side It was still dark out but it did not bother me, I went to the track and stretched out a little bit. I Took a drink of my water and started running around the track. While i ran i thought about stuff like, Do i still want to leave when i know Robbie will be okay Or do i stay here and risk these peoples lives. I mean Robbie seems pretty happy right now but if i were to leave he would be hurt that i left him, I am all he has left. I dont want people to get hurt because of me, I mean i have not even been here a week and already someone knows who i am and wants me and is wiling to start a war. I Really do care for Alpha Davidson, Blake, Sarah and not to mention all the kids and woman here. I could get them all killed and it would be my fault and what about Robbie they dont want him they want me and only me. I love it here dont get me wrong but i cant and wont let nobody get hurt because of my being here. Another thing i have been thinking about is if i have a mate, Its not that i want one because i will probably get them killed but just the thought of someone being able to help me through all of this is an amazing feeling. My mom used to tell me Being around your mate is the most amazing thing in the world, How it feels to be around them, kiss them, and hug them. I just wish i could have had a normal life to be able to have that with someone but because of who i am i will probably run away afraid of getting them hurt. It may sound stupid but to me its whats best to do for everybody. I should just leave and never return because im just toxic to everybody and there well being. I Stopped running to catch my breath when someone coughed and scared the life out of me.

 " Oh shit Blake you scared me." I said while trying to make my heart stop racing

" How long have you been out here."

" Well What time is it" I asked

" Its five"

" well then i have been out here for two hours then"

" Sirena, What the hell have you been doing out here for that fucking long. Something could have happened and no one was up."

" Blake im sorry okay i have a lot on my mind and im pretty sure i can take care of myself."

" I know you can but what if they Shot you with wolfs bane then what. You could have got yourself hurt and what would Robbie and i do if you got hurt" He asked in a very angry voice

" You know what Blake im sorry i cant sleep because i have to think about things. Oh yeah and lets not forget about Jesse having sex all night. All i heard last night was them two going at it, Im sorry i could not sleep while thats happening. I thought about storming in his room and beating the shit out of him but NO! I did what was best and tried to run to relax and now your angry at me. GOD" As i said that i ran inside the house and went to my bedroom slamming the door as hard as i can. I Picked out some clothes for school and went to take a shower to try and cool off. I got out of the shower and put a towel around my body and walked in my room and sat on my bed and brushed out my hair and got dried off. I went back into the bathroom and quickly got dressed and put on a little bit of makeup. I looked at myself in the mirror and approved of what i saw and grabbed my bag and walked out of my room trying to find Sarah because i was gonna ride with her. I know i should not be mad at Blake because he is only trying to keep me safe but mentioning me getting hurt and talking about Robbie and him just made me angry because he was right and If i got of got hurt and they both would have really hurt and sad especially Robbie, He would be devastated. Im all he has left and thats why im so upset at Blake for making me think about it. When i finally found Sarah in the living room she was talking to this guy and looking very pissed off and sad so i went to the kitchen and seen Blake talking to the guy who i guess is named tom.  I hurry up and turned around and started walking away when Blake was behind me trying to get me to stop but i kept walking when he grabbed my wrist and turned me around to look at him.