Remember May (GxG)

14. She

After she came back, the first thing that drew me to her was how unapologetic she was. About everything.

She lived her life like it was hers and hers alone, and it was. She wasn't afraid of occupying space, in fact she demanded to be seen. I was the complete opposite, I did everything I could to make myself as small to the world as possible. I wouldn't let them judge me, she didn't care. They could judge her all they wanted, it wouldn't change who she was.

I remember one day, she and I were walking in the market. The one place that is full of gossiping mamas. They didn't care to whisper either, I heard them loud and clear. They talked about the ring in her nose, and the extra piercings in her ears, or how she didn't always wear her hijab. How does her mother let her walk around like that, they asked. "It's those white people, I'm sure, she must have picked up the queer behaviours from them."

She heard them too. I expected her to cower and to retreat into herself, like I would have done. But she laughed, laughed so loudly that the women had to stop and just stare in disgust instead.

I think that was when I realised that I was in love with her. She looked so beautiful like that, head thrown back, eyes shut tight as she clutched at her tummy in boisterous laughter. The realisation hit me like a ton of bricks.

God, I wish I had half the courage to exist like she did, like she had earned every right to.

A/N:
She. She. She lives in daydreams with me

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