My Demons

Chapter 28: Say Something (Part 2)

Welp... This may be my longest chapter of this fic to-date. But now it's time to break away from the story line of the manga/anime. I hope no one gets too angry at me for this and for what I have planned...

Chapter 28: Say Something (Part 2)

I had no idea how Sumi had found out about Ryuto. The only people who knew, besides the ones that were there back then, were the ones I really trusted. There was no way that one of them told him what happened. Ryuto couldn't have told anybody before he passed away – there was hardly any time for him to speak up. The only people I could think of were my father and my brother. They were blackmailing me somehow. They were the only ones who could have possibly done this. They had threatened me before. They obviously followed through. I was going to murder them for this.

But… what was the point? It's out there now… Sumi must have told Misaki everything that he knew. This is it… It's all over now. He's not going to want to see me ever again. And then there's my whole career situation if Sumi would tell anybody else. But who gives a damn about that if I can't have Misaki by my side anymore?

I felt so defeated and empty inside. There were several shapeless emotions swirling around inside of me: anger, sadness, loneliness, betrayal. I was so close to breaking down, but I couldn't do that in front of this kid, who was somehow in love with me, even after he knew what a monster I was.

One of his hands that were on my chest slid up to caress my cheek. It was absolutely violating, but I was too numb to feel anything. His thumb ran across my bottom lip and he moved in closer. I then felt his other hand start to pull my shirt up. I should have tried to push him away, but I just didn't care anymore. He could do whatever he wanted to me. I was done for anyways.

Suddenly, a loud bang echoed through my ears as a door crashed open. "You're wrong!" a familiar voice cried out.

My heart stopped again as I looked up through my bangs. Misaki stood in the entryway of an open sliding door. The room behind him looked almost like a bedroom and a futon and blanket lay on the floor. How dare Sumi come on to me when he was right there in the other room! Was he making fun of me? Of us?

"You're definitely wrong about that!" he yelled again, his face twisting in anger. He started storming towards us. "That's not – " He stopped dead in his tracks and a look of extreme anxiousness appeared on his face. "What?! What the hell are you guys doing?!"

I couldn't believe that he was denying what Sumi said. Did that mean that the kid didn't tell him anything or did he just not believe it? Surely after hearing what happened in the past would have made him aware of how true Sumi's words were. He must not know… which would make me feel a little bit better if it wasn't for the fact that everything was true. I had forced him from the start.

The brat that hung over me turned his head to look at my lover. "Say, Misaki, won't you give this guy to me?" His look became bewildered. "You're always complaining about Usami and trying to avoid him. And to be honest, I think I know more about him than you do."

He now looked like he was both in shock and in pain. "What? Er, but…" He stopped and just stared at us with wide eyes. I wanted him to say something – anything – to let his friend know that he really did love me.

"There's no need for you to stay with a guy you don't actually like," Sumi continued.

"No… It's not like I'm really…" He obviously had no idea what to say to make everything stop, so he just stopped speaking again. My heart was breaking into pieces. Everything was about to fall apart and he still couldn't admit that he loved me.

"I'll take responsibility for him, so you can just go back to your brother or something."

He paused, as if giving Misaki time to say something. However, he still didn't say a word. The guy smirked and turned back to me, reaching up to my face again. As he pulled my face up, I didn't even try to fight back. If Misaki didn't want me or didn't love me, then what was the point of doing anything? I just wanted to break down and cry, yet I still held onto a small hope that he would stop him. As Sumi brought my face closer and closer to try to kiss me, that hope dwindled and nearly died.