My Demons

Chapter Eleven

Chapter 11

            It was hot… almost too hot. The feeling of being inside the one I treasured was indescribable. I hadn’t felt that feeling in so many years. This time, I swear it was even stronger. Being that close to someone you love is a privilege unlike any other… And I’ll cherish our first time together forever.

            I tried to make it as pain free and pleasurable as possible for Misaki. I went slowly at first and made sure to touch him and please him the entire time. I know he enjoyed it. His moans and trembling body proved that. So, why was he crying the whole time? Was it just because it was his first time? It couldn’t have been all that bad for him if he came like that. Seeing him orgasm sent me over the edge and I almost couldn’t get out in time for my own orgasm to hit. He was incredibly beautiful.

            Afterwards, I grabbed some tissues and cleaned up his stomach where our essences pooled together. His face burned bright red. I put back on my clothes that I had taken off and then helped him put his back on as well. He seemed too weak to move.

            “Misaki, are you okay?” I asked.

            He didn’t answer. His cheeks became red again and he averted his eyes from my gaze. I placed a hand on his cheek and caressed it, my thumb gently wiping at the remaining tears on his face. I then did the same to the other side. He tightly shut his eyes as I did so.

            “Are you tired?” It was almost 11 o’clock, after all.

            Again, he didn’t answer me, but at least he nodded. He began to sit up, but his face immediately contorted in pain. He grabbed his lower back as he lied back down and grunted at whatever he was feeling. It had definitely hurt him.

            “I’ll carry you.”

            His eyes and mouth flew open, but he didn’t say anything. I picked him up bridal style, careful not to toss him around too much and worsen his pain. I kept watching his eyes, looking for any sign of discomfort, as I carried him up the stairs and into my bedroom.

            “You can sleep here tonight, Misaki,” I whispered as I laid him down on my bed next to Suzuki-san.

            I pulled the blankets over him and tucked him in sweetly. Exhaustion must have snuck up on him as his eyelids quickly drooped down. I climbed in bed as well on the other side of Suzuki-san. Misaki’s breathing steadied out as he fell asleep. I so badly wanted to move the giant bear and snuggle up to him, but he had been through an awful lot today. Deciding against it, I snuggled up to my pillow and began to drift off.

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            The first I saw when I woke up was Suzuki-san. It was kind of depressing to see him instead of my Misaki. As the sleepiness left my eyes, I pushed myself up with my arms and looked over to the other side of the bed. The covers were folded over and Misaki wasn’t there. I listened closely and could hear the faint sound of running water down the hall. I sighed as I sat up in bed and lit a cigarette.

            As I slowly woke up more, the sleepy haze wore off in my mind and I could remember bits and pieces of what happened last night. I smiled at the memories and it felt like I was on cloud nine... Until I realized how strange Misaki was acting afterwards. He didn’t speak to me and he hardly looked me in the eyes. Was he angry at me? Was he just embarrassed? Did he really not like it?

            A wave of uneasiness swept over me as I crunched out my cigarette end in the ashtray on my nightstand. I felt bad for rushing into it. He did say that he didn’t want to go that far, but I didn’t listen. I must have pressured him too much. He has to be very upset with me. I couldn’t have that. I love him too much. I had to do something for him.