Save me {BTSXJungkook}

Chapter 5 {AT}

Grave...

A place for the dead to rest peacefully for the rest of eternity 

Peacefully rest without worrying about anything.

 Without being a bother. 

Jungkook wanted to rest peacefully. 

Maybe, hopefully, soon he would be able to rest peacefully. 

That thought alone made jungkook smile a weak, broken smile. 

Soon enough he told himself. 

Very soon...

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It was later on in the day when it happened. 

Jungkook was trying to have a good day and interact with the members. He wanted to get back to his normal self. He wanted to get better but his members decided today was the day to annoy him. Any other time he would laugh with them and annoy them back but today something was different. 

When Jimin commented on how he was a bit slower a practice today, he was a bit more than just irritated. With the blood loss and barely eating or drinking, he was bound to be slower than normal. But he couldn't just go out and say that to his hyungs without them lashing out. He couldn't just say that he was trying his best to not faint and be a burden to his hyungs. 

After having to start over so many times, they decided to take a break, and since it was around lunchtime they all ordered and ate but not without complaining to the youngest for them having to restart so many times. He tried to endure it. He tried to stick it out but he really really couldn't. It was even worse for him because namjoon who knew of his situation joined in on making him feel like absolute shit. It only worsened when jin began talking about how he was ungrateful for the food he paid for and how he was wasting everything. 

What angered him was that they had the audacity to act surprised and confused when he stormed out of the room to get away from them. What angered him was that namjoon wasn't really worried about him when he found out. It was fake. What angered him is that he found out what every member thought of him. 

Jungkook found himself in another practice room with the door locked. As much as he wanted to just end it all, it would have to wait until after the awards and their album release. He would stick it out for a month or two for ARMY. That's how jungkook was once again practicing nonstop. In anyone else's eyes, they could see how he had perfected the moves he was messing up on but jungkook himself only saw mistakes that weren't there. 

Many many hours later, jungkook began to see spots in his vision. He began to get light-headed and dizzy. He panted heavily as he put his hands on his knees bending over slightly. His sweat was dripping like a faucet from his face and onto the floor. He knew that that was going to bite him in the ass later. He just knew it. He would make a mistake and since the floor would be slippery from his sweat, he would slip and fall. 

A part of him was really hoping it would happen in a way to where maybe he terribly broke his neck and he just died on the spot. Or maybe he'd end up in a coma and eventually they'd have to pull the plug. Jungkook sighed loudly and shook his head to get rid of the thoughts but that was a very bad idea. The dizziness intensified as well as the black dots in his vision. 

He went to stand up straight but instead, he began to fall forward. He closed his eyes and waited to hit the ground but when he did, he heard a thud, too far away to be him hitting the ground. That was the last thing he heard before he blacked out. 

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When jungkook later woke up, he was filled with much disappointment. The gods couldn't have mercy on him and just take him away? The face that popped into his vision is what brought him from his thoughts. Yeonjun was staring back at him with a worried frown on his face. He got his hopes up, hoping to see his members there and worried for him but all he got was worried stares from the rookie group instead. 

He sighed deeply and slowly stood up with help from the eldest of the group. He looked around once more before speaking but was immediately stopped when the leader of the group gave him a water bottle with a straw in it. He gave him a hoarse thank you before drinking at least half the bottle and only when he set it down did they all bombard him with questions. 

The youngest two were on the verge of tears while they asked the older if he was okay. jungkook was very much pale and the bags under his eyes were very much prominent. After he had been silent for a few minutes, he held his hand up to stop them from talking before he began to speak. "How did you all get in here? the door was locked" 

The boys looked at each other worriedly before soobin began to explain "It was time to practice and the door was locked. We just thought someone accidentally locked it after leaving since we couldn't see anyone or hear anything so we got someone to open the door for us and we saw you there." 

Jungkook sighed softly before nodding. He grabbed the bottle and took another sip while the boys were staring at him worriedly. He then looked at them "You boys need to promise me that no one knows about this okay? I mean absolutely no one okay?" 

The boy group nodded and jungkook began to gather all his things and finally looked at the time. Five hours. He was gone for five hours before anyone noticed and if the boys picked another room to practice in, it would've taken longer or no one would've noticed. He bit his lip and bowed slightly to the boys who told him to go rest and fuel up. He gave them a small nod before leaving. He called a taxi and went home to the dorm and when he went inside, he was met with the sight of all the members playing games happily in the living room. To say he was heartbroken was an understatement. 

He quietly made his way to his room even though he could be loud and they still wouldn't acknowledge him. He closed and locked his door and took a deep breath before he put his bag down and went into the bathroom. he turned on the water as hot as it would go before stripping and looking at himself in the mirror. 

This isn't what he wanted. He was so tempted to just stop it all. He bit his lip softly and turned the shower off and decided he wanted a bath. He grabbed his phone and waited for the tub to fill up as he scrolled through all the missed messages from when he was "out". They were all about what would be for dinner or what they should do when they got home or their plans for the next day. None were about why he was gone for five hours. None were about if he was okay or where he was. None of them were about him. He didn't notice any of the tears strolling down his face until they hit the screen. He sniffed softly and quickly grabbed the pill bottles then got in the tub. He shook his head softly before he opened the bottle and continuously took all the pills until there were none left. 

He waited until he started to feel slower and sink lower into the tub before he grabbed his phone again and texted namjoon

 -I'm so sorry Hyung... i- 

Before he could even send the message, he began to shake and the phone dropped from his hand as he sank under the water and soon enough it all went black.

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Super late but a little long. let me know if you want the long chapters or not. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this chapter. love you all.