Jungkook dropped the bottle and stood up, walking deeper into the trees, ignoring hoseok calling for him and the sounds of him rushing to get up to follow the boy.
"Stop causing all these problems and just disappear jungkook. You'll be doing everyone a favor you-"
The voice was cut off when he felt hoseok grab his wrists tightly. When did he get in front of him and why does he look so sad? He's going to leave soon so he shouldn't look so sad
Right...?
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He never expected this.
This isn't what he wanted to happen.
He thought it would help
Why is this happening...?
Hoseok cried as he sat on the hospital floor, regretting ever opening his mouth. He sobbed as he waited for something. Anything.
He just wanted his love to be okay.
{FLASHBACK}
Hoseok grabbed jungkook's wrist tightly before he could walk any further. "Jungkook, stop!"
When the boy finally looked up at him, he took a step back from the look on his face. It was such a dark look and it scared him a bit. He took jungkook's hands and pulled him a bit closer. He didn't know what was going on in his head but he had an idea that none of it was good.
"Jungkook... I have something to tell you.." he mumbled out and looked away. Was this the right thing to do right now? Probably not but it might help the boy some. Maybe it will help him see that they truly want to help him and see him do better.
Jungkook looked away, pulling his hands away as he took a step back "If you're going to spew more bullshit about caring then save it. I don't care nor do I want to hear it." He said it with venom laced in his tone.
He hated the pity act. He hated the way they pretended to care. That's all they do, pretend to care. He's tired of it honestly.
"Look at him... He doesn't really care about you. Let's be honest, who would?"
There goes that voice again. He hates it but it's right. Who would actually care about him? They only see him as a bratty boy they got stuck in a group with.
Hoseok was shocked at the tone and took a step back. Something was poisoning jungkook's thoughts. He just knew it because there was no way that his jungkook would speak to any of them like that.
"Are you just going to stare at me or are you going to say what you think would help but will only make it worse?" Jungkook asked with a bite to his tone. It was always the same thing when someone would find out and he's so sick and tired of it.
Hoseok sighed softly before taking a deep breath. If this didn't help the boy at all, he doesn't know what he would do. Maybe go into hiding.
He gave himself a little pep talk in his mind before he looked jungkook in his eyes and let out another breath "Jungkook, I love you"
...
Jungkook just looked at him unimpressed before he rolled his eyes "So same bullshit as the others. Got it" he nodded his head and turned to leave before he felt hoseok grab his hand to stop him as he spoke.
"NO- I-I mean no, Jungkook. What I mean is, I... I'm in love with you..." Jungkook froze and slowly turned around to face the male who had his head down.
"Jungkook I am so in love with you. I know it sounds fake and you might think it is but I promise you that I love you with everything that I have-" He was cut off by a sob. He let jungkook go and furiously wiped his tears and carried on "Jungkook I love you and I have for a long while. I-I didn't say anything because I thought that you would hate me afterwards but It hurts to see you like this. You think no one cares about you but I do. I care so much about you and I love you jungkook"
He turned away to try and compose himself before he continued talking "I care and love you so much jungkook. It hurts that I can't do anything to help you with what you're going through... It hurts that you won't let us help with what you're going through. I-...." He let out a shakey breath before turning around to face the boy "I really can't live without you jungkook..."
...
For a few seconds, the world was silent. There were no bug noises, no wind. Just silence as the two stared at each other.
Jungkook just looked at him in disbelief before he turned and ran from the boy which had hoseok sobbing as he ran after the boy "Jungkook- Stop! Please!"
They ran past taehyung who had calmed down yoongi. They looked up from the picnic blanket and immediately stopped when they heard hoseok sobbing and begging for jungkook to stop. They ran after the male as well but they were too late to stop anything that happened.
Jungkook ran and ran. What was he running away from? The voice, his feelings, living...
Jungkook ran without watching where he was going and twisted his ankle. He let out a scream of pain but it didn't last long. As jungkook fell to the ground, he hit his head on a sharp rock.
Hoseok felt his heart stop when he heard a crack when jungkook fell. He froze before he ran up to jungkook's unconscious body and dropped to his knees. He quickly held the boy in his arms he screamed for taehyung or yoongi to help.
Taehyung just stood there in shock. He had tears in his eyes as he looked at the unconscious body of his best friend. He just barely registered what yoongi was saying.
"TAEHYUNG!" yoongi yelled at him to get his attention, "Help Seok get jungkook to the car! NOW!!!" Taehyung quickly snapped out of it and immediately went to help hoseok pick jungkook up. They then carefully but quickly got the boy to the car.
He wanted to sit in the back with his best friend but hoseok beat him to it, sitting in the seat with jungkook's bloody head in his lap as he sobbed. Hosoeok couldn't even see clearly with how much he was crying. He rocked slightly as he held jungkook as close as he could as he repeatedly apologized. "I'm so sorry- I-Im sorry, please... I'm sorry!!"
The car ride was filled with sobs from both taehyung and hoseok. Yoongi wanted to cry as well. He was so so worried for his baby but one of them had to be strong. He knew it was bad to hold it in. He knew he was just a ticking time bomb but he couldn't focus on that now. He had to make sure his kookie was okay.
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They finally made it to the hospital and hoseok was spiraling more. He screamed at the nurses who were taking too long in his opinion. They got jungkook onto the bed and immediately ran him into an operating room after taking note of his injuries. Hoseok almost ran into the operating room as well but a doctor held him back and made him sit on the floor to calm down a bit.
Hoseok cried as he sat on the hospital floor, regretting ever opening his mouth. He sobbed as he waited for something. Anything.
He just wanted his love to be okay.
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Save me {BTSXJungkook}
FanfictionJungkook is suffering from depression and anxiety. He needs to be saved from himself. He needs his hyungs more than anything. Will they come around to help? Or will they leave him be to figure out his own problems? Started: Jan 10, 2020 Ended: ??? ©...
