Save me {BTSXJungkook}

Chapter 4 {A}

He began to tear up and cry silently as he curled in on himself in a fetal position and just cried but made sure not to be loud, not wanting to disturb his hyungs more than he already has.

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A few hours later, a knock was heard on his door. He looked to the clock to see that it was 5 am which meant that they had to get ready for practice. He got up and pulled down the sleeve of his hoodie and went to the door. He opened it slightly and kept the light off so whoever it was, couldn't see his puffy and red face. He didn't want anyone to ask questions and he didn't want to draw attention to himself. He just wanted to practice and get home and sleep until he eventually just faded from the world.

When jungkook finally pulled himself from his thoughts, he noticed namjoon standing there with worry written all over his face. His lips were pulled down into a frown and his eyebrows were scrunched together. While jungkook didn't like the look on the male, there wasn't anything he could do to bring the happiness back. It was gone and they both knew that. Jungkook sighed softly and walked past him as he said "If it's about yesterday then forget about it. I'm fine and nothing's wrong so just drop it okay?"  Namjoon quickly caught the male's arm and held him back as he spoke in a hushed whisper "I'm not going to push you to tell me kook but I'm always here okay? I don't want you to be suffering alone." Jungkook shook him off and just walked away to the kitchen to grab a banana.

He sat at the table and mumbled thanks to jin who handed him a smoothie since he didn't like coffee all that much, although he could most definitely use a cup right about now. As he finished his smoothie and his banana, the rest of the members made their way downstairs and sat at the table, dressed to dance for the next few hours. Seokjin had begun to place the breakfast he made on the table so they could eat and get to the company. The members hated dance practice because it always took so much out of them but, they would do what they could to be their best for ARMY.

Everyone began to dig in, trying to eat as much as they could because they knew they needed it. Jungkook on the other hand, only ate a few of the cut-up fruit jin set out on the table which didn't go unnoticed. Namjoon, who had been watching him since he left his room just frowned but kept quiet. He wouldn't tell jungkook's business even though he felt as if he should. The boy had cuts on his arm and that made him wonder where the boy was going the night he had been caught.

All the possibilities of what could've happened if he didn't catch the boy when he was on his way to the home studio to get more work done made him shiver. By this time, he had lost his appetite. He wasn't eating because he was hungry, he was eating because he knew it would help him later on in the day.  Just as he was finishing his food, he heard seokjin talking to the youngest with a small frown on his face. 

"Jungkook, even if you're not hungry please eat. We'll be practicing all day today and I don't want you fainting because you didn't eat or drink enough today" Jungkook sighed and turned to look at jin. Behind his emotionless eyes hid the annoyance. "Hyung I'm fine okay? I'll just eat when we get back. I'm not hungry and I'd probably throw everything up anyways." Seokjin sighed deeply "Jungkook I will not ask again. Eat your food, so we can get to practice" 

Jungkook huffed and put the smallest pancake he could see onto his plate and took a bite, eyes staring at seokjin as he said "happy?" with an attitude. Seokjin just shook his head and mumbled something about jungkook being a brat as he finished up his food as well. As everyone was getting up to clear their plates, seokjin told jungkook to stay back and at least finish the food on his plate. As jungkook sat back down and began to eat the rest of the pancake, he had to sit through seokjin complaining about wasting food and how he needed to eat anyways because he was becoming too thin and needed at least a little bit of meat on his bones.

Jungkook loved his hyungs. He truly did but, they can be a handful sometimes. He sometimes wishes that they would leave him alone but he would never voice that thought. He knew they would leave him alone if he asked but he knew that's not what he needed. If they left him alone, there was a chance that the only time they would be around him again would be at his funeral or his grave.

Grave...

A place for the dead to rest peacefully for the rest of eternity 

Peacefully rest without worrying about anything. Without being a bother. 

Jungkook wanted to rest peacefully. Maybe, hopefully, soon he would be able to rest peacefully. 

That thought alone made jungkook smile a weak, broken smile.

Soon enough he told himself.

Very soon...

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Hi guys!!!! I'm back with updates!! They will be slow but not as slow as I was since I have the rest of summer to update!! Anyways, please go check me out on ao3 where I will be writing a very new fanfic! You can find me at Niquered on the website. I will probably be posting all of my stories on there as well I don't know yet. Anyways, I hope you all enjoyed it!!