Polaroids

6|hope

The sky was the most beautiful shade of blue. A cool breeze blew across the town sending the lovely orange-yellow leaves to fall of the withering  trees and into the beauty of fall season. The smell of pumpkin flavoured everything swept into the air adding to the beauty of season. Truly, fall was my favorite time of year.

It's been two days since the incident at Josh's party happened. Although I almost got assaulted and fell into a freezing pool giving me a temporal cold, I couldn't help but feel an underlined feeling of unexplainable happiness and excitement at the bottom of my stomach.

I didn't know exactly what that feeling was, but I was sure of who caused it.

Josh...

Something about how concerned he was of me at the party made me feel warm inside. Sure, any sane person would be concerned if one of their guests almost got assaulted at their Party, but for some reason I felt Asif it was more than that.

All through Tuesday and Wednesday, my timid self tried my hardest to avoid him, in hopes that the strange feeling would go away. But at the end of school today my efforts seemed vain when he had cought up to me in the library.

"Your ignoring me" he asked, but it sounded more like he was telling me. I pushed my reading glasses up my nose looking up at him from the book I was reading.

"I don't recall us having the type of relationship where we're close enough to talk all the time" I say placing the book on my lap. He made a grunting sound in the dept of his throat, before pulling out a seat and sitting besides me.

"You know what I mean Katherine" he says glaring at me "I tried calling to ask how you were last night and I got no reply. Your ignoring me" he adds sounding a bit worried.

"Well as you can see I'm fine, thanks for your concern but to be honest I don't need it. I've been doing well enough on my own anyways" I reply with a hint of anger, before getting up about to leave.

"Well forgive me for worrying about my guest" he says angrily. I continue walking away not looking back once. I wasn't going to allow myself be so easy to get to with a couple of sweet words. No matter how much I wanted  to I needed to play hard to get.

"Your forgiven" I say continuing to strut away. I hear his angry footsteps before he grabs my hand, turning me around and pinning my to a bookshelf, making me unable to move or look away from him.

"Where is this rudeness coming from?" He asked with narrowed eyes. "Nowhere, this is just who I am" I reply.

"Well this wasn't who you were last night" he says "well a girl can change" I reply sarcastically looking away, knowing if I looked into those eyes my angry presonna would be over immediately.

"Look at me" he says trying to stare into my eyes.

Damn it Josh...

"No, let me go I barely know you" I say trying to escape his grip. "Look at me Katherine, this isn't like you" he says concerned

Why was he so suddenly concerned about  me?

"Yes this isn't like me, I'm only nice to my friends, or atleast people who notice me" I say, instantly regretting how emotionally I said the last six words.

"Oh" he says Letting me go "I see what this is about" he takes a step back.

"I guess this is wierd" he adds, but it sounded like he was talking to himself. "Okay sit" he says, I hesitate but do it anyway.

"I know we've never really talked, well never talked but I want you to know, I wanna be your friend...I mean if that's okay with you" he says. I want to say something to counter him, but decided to just nod in approval.

"That guy last night used to be one of my best friends friend, and it's because of something similar we stopped being friends with him. I was just afraid that something like that would happen to another girl, that's why I'm so concerned if your okay or not,plus I care about my umm ...friends"he explains, and I feel dumb for being so rude to him. I stubbornly let out a sigh.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be so rude... it's just that from what I heard, you kinda just use your looks and words to charm girls into your bed, I didn't want to be a part of that" I apologise nervously, back to my shy self again.

"And you believe all of that?" He asks sounding offended. I shrug in responding. "Look, all those rumors are just a bunch of made up shit, infact because of these rumors I wasn't able to find a girl to even talk to, they think I'm some quiet player, but it's really not like that" he explains. "I was hoping you didn't think that too" his eyes lower in sadness, as he turns around about to leave.

"Well I don't" I say making him stop "I did...but now that you told me, I don't. Trust me, I know exactly how damaging rumors can be" I say thinking of all the bitter rumors going on about me.

"I know, and I don't believe any of them" he says surely. My eyes shoot up to him in Surprise "Really?" I ask and he nods.

This is the first person besides Emma to ever not believe those rumors...

"That's.." he scratches his head nervously ".. that's actually why I invited you as a special  guest. I knew you'd understand scince we're both going through the same thing. And if we could go through it together I guess there's some sort of...of..."

"Hope" we say in unison, as we smile at each other.

At that moment I knew it would be start of something..... something beautiful...or terrible....

Song: if we have each other by Alec Benjamin