Polaroids

17|Guilt

Isn't it wierd how a single moment can change something for a lifetime? ...
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Emma POV

"And remember to work on your flips and bridges girls, coach might be out sick today but we still have to do good okay?"

"Okay"

"Alright have a good day guys" I say taking my cheer bag and walking off the field.

I changed quickly and got in my car, throwing my back pack to the empty passengers seat besides me. I look around at the cool snowy abiss and turn on the car heater, a warm cup of hot cocoa sounded delightful right now.

•wanna go out for coffee? :)

I get a text from Josh and smile. It's like he knows what I want without me even saying it.

-you know me so well  ( ◜‿◝ )♡ I was just thinking about that!

I reply.

• well ofcourse I do it's kinda my job  XD. Meet you at Abby's?

- uh I'm already driving by the café on 8th Street, meet me there?

• Will do. See you soon beautiful ;))

- see you :)

I drop my phone in the cup holder and drive towards my destination. Josh and i's relationship has been going great, he's really sweet and caring and literally the perfect guy. I like him but I just feel he's a little too perfect.

To be honest, when I said yes to this relationship I wasn't actually Inlove with him. My main reason was because I felt he was cute and stereotypically my type, so why not? But when I realized kath was Inlove with him and was mad I wanted something for myself for the first time, I chose to keep him for myself.

Selfish, I know, but at that time I was annoyed and fed up with her never being able to give up a single thing for me with everything I've done for her.

I get to the café and sit at a table in the far corner, setting my coat on the back of my seat. I get out my phone and text him I've arrived. The smell of sweet coffee and other beverages filled the warm atmosphere, I want to order but decide to wait for him to get here instead.

Scrolling on several social medias I get tired and a bit impatient that he wasn't here yet.

Where could he be?  I think to myself as I wait.

The sound of the little bell on the top of the door jingles and I look back hoping it's him. A familiar Brunnette dark skinned figure walks into the café.

I haven't talked to Allison as long as I haven't talked to Kath or Teresa...

Almost a week..

But I wasn't sure if she was also mad at me.

"Alli.." I loud whisper as I walk towards her as she orders a pack of donuts. Her eyes drift towards me but drift away quickly.

"Oh..hey Emma" she says staring at the assortment of pastries through the glass frame. "H- how are you?" I ask. She shrugs. "I'm good...you?"

I look around nervously. "I'm fine" I reply, she replies with an "mmm"

I shove my hands in my pockets wondering whether I should ask her what I wanted to ask.

"Um... How's Teresa?... And Katherine?" I ask. She looks up at me for the first time.

"Teresa is fine" she replies blankly.

"And Katherine?". She laughs and rolls her eyes.

"You're asking about Katherine? Your supposed best friend that you dumped for some guy you don't even really know? That  Katherine?" She says almost angrily. I nod silently. She smiles and tilts her head slightly.

"She's doing absolutely splendid, Emma, she's doing great, couldn't be better" she exaggerates. I look up at her doubtfully, I wasn't sure if she's being serious.

"What do you think?" She asks. I would almost feel bad, but then I remembered my point of the situation.

"Well that's good I hope you're all doing well, but I didn't come to talk to you because I feel sorry or anything, infact tell her I'm quite happy with my relationship" I say as I cross my arms. I wasn't going to allow anyone stop me from being happy anymore. She stayed silent and stared at me in disgust. I turn around about to leave when she tells me something I wished to never hear.

"Well I'm glad you're happy, you know, she almost relapsed, thanks for that" she says grabbing her order and leaving before I could even say anything.

I froze.

Relapse?

"Wait what?" I thought out loud, but Allison had already left.

No no no... Katherine can not relapse!

What was I thinking? I knew something like that would affect her. I stood there staring blankly into nothingness, and for the first time, I felt...

Guilt.

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A/N

I feel so incredibly guilty (〒﹏〒) Haven't updated since January 28th I think...ough...I hate hearing this excuse but school and other stuff took so much of my time!! Also, I had to take a mental health break so pls don't despise Mee (｡ﾉω＼｡)

This is a surprise chapter basically, so just enjoy even though it's pretty short, I promise I'll try my best to update more, but for now, this is what you get : p

It's unedited so don't mind the typos I'll correct them eventually :))