secrets

25 | Impulse

*note this is not the unexpected chapter but it's the next one. deepest apology.

Iris's POV

I pin in the numbers before a click noise was made and twisted the door handle. Just like last time with the situation of Noah , instead of seeing 7 angry faces , I see 7 concerned faces. I know what this means but I just walked back to my room.

"Iris , what happened to you" Dad stern voice boomed at the end of the table.

I stopped in my trail way.

"Nothing happened , it's just that I hit it really hard by accident and it's not really a big deal" I shake it off.

Alexander's voice shouted across the table "Clearly it's not a small deal , like look at you , you're literally limping and bleeding. What is wrong with you ?"

I don't know whether I want to strangle him for saying this on impulse or him stating the fact or the way he is saying that there is something wrong with me like I'm a robot that needs to be fixed.

"It's NOT a big deal"

"Yes it is"

"Tell us the truth , Iris" Lorenzo spoke. To be honest , I don't know who is more of a douchebag , Lorenzo or Alexander.

"It's the truth , y'all are literally making a big fuss over it" that's a half lie , I mean it's not the truth but they're literally making a big fuss over it , it's just blood.

Have they not seen it in their lives in the mafia ?

"Just tell us" Lucas spoke. I never would thought Lucas would take side of them , I thought we were close but clearly not. But it's okay I don't blame him.

At this time , I'm literally fuming ,"Look , y'all have to stop seriously making this a big deal. Like y'all just take me in , don't expect me to open up to y'all. Although I'm grateful that y'all took me in but just stay the fuck out of my business." I shouted , before stomping off to my room where I heard Lorenzo shouted from downstairs

"Iris Bianchi , You are grounded"

"Like I fucking care , you can have my phone , I don't care" I shouted down.

I have two phone , one for hell's devil and the other for school so basically I can give them the school because technically I give them A phone.

Marc's POV

"She still won't tell us , the injury is clearly not made from the table" I said , sighing.

"You know what , I'm gonna ask her myself since y'all don't want to pressurize her but look at the bigger picture , she won't tell us if we don't ask her" Alexander stood up.

"Alexander" My voice boomed from the end of the table. "Sit down now"

"I don't care , I'm gonna find out what is wrong with her"

"I say sit down NOW" I raised my voice.

Everybody stopped what they were doing and looked up at me. "Instead of getting the answer from her , you are gonna shut her down away from us" I said.

He sat back down knowing what I said was true.

I always knew Alexander's impulse will get the worse of him but he wasn't like that before. Before Iris was taken away , he would always be the one who would bring the family together along with Iris and the one who would always break up a fight.

But when Iris was taken away , he became this cold , short tempered person and would shut himself away from us , he would be the one who gets into fight everyday in school and the one who would say something on impulse by accident that would trigger the situation.

He changed.

You can't blame him , Iris and Alexander were like two peas in a pod.

Suddenly Iris came back into our lives , I did see Alexander trying to make the effort to be more opened but his impulse would still get ahead of him.

He just wants to be a brother , a good brother , to care and protect Iris from any danger.

When he heard Iris is back , he was the most happiest person in the world , nothing could take away the smile on his face but he doesn't know how to express it.

It's been long since he ever express his emotions besides anger.

"We'll find about what happened to her but there's something we have to settle first" I changed the topic.

"What is it ?" Elijah asked. "The alliance with the Spanish mafia" "Oh ya , we've been so caught up with the situation with Iris that we forget about it." he said.

Yes , Iris situation is important but the alliance is also important , I wouldn't say it is more important to Iris but it is something we need in order to protect everybody , especially Iris.

Iris's POV

I sat by the window edge , closing my eyes and putting my legs out , enjoying the cold breeze that brushed against my arms and my cheeks.

I listened to one of Chase Atlantic songs , numb to the feeling . All of Chase Atlantic songs are the best , it is the best to listen to it whenever you feel sad , angry , happy , just any emotions.

But is it just me but slowed , reverb songs just hit different.

Heard you got a heart, let me see
Heard you got a heart, let me see
I need you to split that thing with me
Yeah, I need you to split that thing with me, girl
Heard you're skipping meals, losing sleep
Well, I've been doing the same honestly
Well, I look like a fucking walking corpse, girl
Say the words, "R.I.P." 'cause
My tolerance is going up
And I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
And I've been abusing drugs
I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I need you to show me love
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I need you to ride me harder when we fuck
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, whoa
I'm getting numb to the feeling
I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
I'm getting numb to the feeling
Yeah, I'm getting numb to the feeling, whoa
I need you to show me love
'Cause I'm getting numb to the feeling, yeah
My tolerance is going up
And I'm getting numb to the feeling

The feeling of relaxation was indescribable , it was something I needed to cool off.

I know I might have said something that I didn't mean to but I really don't want to tell them about it.

I know I'm pushing them away even though they're trying their best to open up to me but I really don't want their pity once they know what happened.

I don't want to them know about the bullet.

I don't want them to know about what happened to me in my last 13 years of my life.

I don't want to know everything about me.

I just...

want to hide from them.

okay really sorry when I said that this chapter is unexpected but it's actually the next one , I'm so sorry. but I can promise u it's the next one and REALLY unexpected.

*that's it for chapter 25 !! hope you like it !! <3
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