I can't breathe (Boyxboy)

Chapter 8

[...Chapter 8...]

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I've always enjoyed the bitter taste of alcohol. I like how beer tastes yeasty, how Pinot Grigio tastes sweet and how Don Eduardo Anejo tequila is mild, not too tart. I like inhaling the sour smoke of a cigaret; Its soothes me and feels nice. Its like I am in control of my own breathing, and if I wanted to choke, I could.

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Adam is not answering my calls. He is not texting back or even letting me now that he is alive.

After I told him my lifestory, he told me to leave. But he send me mixed emotions by kissing me on the way out. I still remember his quivering, wet lips. They were wet because he had been crying. He was clearly overwhelmed by it all. So would I have been if I was told that my boyfriend had been a sex-slave kept in a dungeon under ground.

I will not live without Adam. I can't live without Adam. He is the reason I am not laying in the gutter. He is the reason that I've had a reason to live these past moths.

My head was spinning around and I was feeling alone. The darkness was taking over my room and my bed never felt so uncomfortable. The sound of drops hitting the ground was substantial and the only thing I could hear, besides the thunder. A sudden light from my phone made me focus.

"I need you." Said a text from Adam. As I exhaled a stream of smoke another one ticked in: "I am downstairs." My heart was beating fast and I didn't know if I should feel relieved or scared.

I walked to the door and twisted all the locks, opening it. Adams eyes were red and his cheeks were wet. His hair was unkempt and messy. He was wearing dark jeans and an open jacket with nothing under. His reds lips were trembling and he was looking so sad, yet I felt so...

Adam jumped into my arms and started kissing my neck. His balmy lips felt amazing on my naked skin. I held on to him and started walking towards my bedroom. "I need you to hold me. Please" He whispered against my skin, making me shiver. I layed him down on my bed and kissed his forehead. He took of his jacket as I layed down next to him.

He moved in closer and I put my arms around him. He moved his head closer to mine and crashed his lips onto mine. I could feel his pain. I could feel how much he needed me, by the way he was getting closer to me. He bit my lip, trying to talk. "I don't blame you". "I crave you, Adam".

Again he smashed his lips desperatly into mine and rolled on top of me twisting out legs together. His warm body was wonderful against mine. His warmth reached my heart causing it to beat faster. He traced kisses down my stomach, making me shiver. I stroked his soft hair and let out a small moan as he reached my boxers. He looked up at me reassureringly as me grabbed the rubber band. I gave him an allowing smile and layed my head back, grabbing on to his hair.

He took my boxers of and started caressing my member, that was already hard. He rubbed it and playfully bit into my thigh. "Please, Adam" I begged looking into his shinning eyes. He nodded and smiled gently at me. His eyes was filled with desire and lust. I crashed my head into the madress as he took me in his mouth. My body was flooded with pleasure and longing. It felt as if th world didn't matter. We were the only people on the earth. All of our worries were gone and it was just us. He moved his lips to my thighs and started kissing up and down while his hands were on my solid member.

After several moans he looked up at me. His eyes was filled with christmas lights as he mouthed 'I love you' to me. I pulled him up to my lips and our tongues started to move in concur. "I fucking love you" I breathed against his lips.

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I watched as the large glowing sphere rose slowly into the dull morning sky. Casting sunbeams in every direction while it illuminated my bedroom.

The white covers were sheltering Adams marvelous face. I was utterly, entirely and madly in love with him. His smile made my heart jump, his hair made my puls aroused and his amazing body was to perish for.

As I was thinking to myself, Adam started moving. He slowly opened his eyes, staring directly at me. He didn't say anything and neither did I. His face was inches from mine and his eyes was looking intensely at me. He sealed the air between us by planting a kiss on my lips. His lips stretched into a smile and I smiled back while embracing him.

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"Call me when you get home!" I yelled as the outer door slowly closed. I locked my door and disapeared into my kitchen. Immediately the smell of death flowers intered my nose. The petals were slowly falling on the windowsill. The black rose was holding its posture while the rest was diminishing.

I sat down at the kitchen little square table, taking in the view of my kitchen. In corner of the granit kitchen counters was piles upon stacks of bottles. From my favorite drinks to the ones I needed to drink. It brought back memories; I hadn't had a drink since the day Adam and I got together.

I took out a bowl, milk and cereal. I slowly filled the bowl with the honey coded Cherrios and poured the milk. I filled my mouth and chewed every inch of Cherrio. I kept sitting there for hours just wondering and waiting.

As the sun was going down, making the room coral I realised something...

Adam hasn't called yet.

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Hello! Yet another chapter. Also, the story will be ending very soon... :)