Hold On 'Til May - Fuenciado

Chapter Twenty-One

[Vic]

Kellin held up a knife, a very scary-looking one at that, that must have been what he left to get. I tapped his shoulder, leaning in to whisper. "Let him suffer in fear for a while Kellin," I suggested, brushing my lips against his cheek when I finished speaking. Honestly, I couldn't believe I had just told Jaime the things I had. They were all complete lies, and I never want to say those words again. But, I knew that Kellin was at least a bit on the crazy side, and I'd have to go along with him, if I didn't want either of us to get hurt. What I said probably caused Jaime a lot of emotional pain, but he'd forgive me when I told him what was going on... I hope. That last thing I said, now that was a low blow... but I had to get Kellin to trust me, right?

"Good idea babe," he agreed, turning to face me, then leaning in for a kiss. I kissed him, still feeling disgusted with myself for ever having dated this psyco, but certainly not showing it. I turned towards the way Kellin lead me down, and Kellin lead me back up the stairs. "So, Vic, what would you like to do?" he smiled at me, and I smiled back. I was kind of worried about leaving Jaime down there for quite a while, because he hated being alone, and it was dark, but tonight... hopefully I'd be able to fix things.

***

We were getting ready for bed, Kellin of course making me sleep with him. I still had no clue where we were, or if anyone was even nearby, but I wasn't going to risk there being no one nearby and just wandering helplessly if Kellin knew the area well. He'd find us way too easily that way.

"Can I have something more comfortable to sleep in babe?" I asked, pulling off my shirt. He tossed me a pair of pyjama pants, the house was pretty cold. I smiled at him, then stripped down to my boxers, when Kellin walked up to me. I was about to pull up my pyjama pants when he forced me against the wall, kissing me passionately. I stood in shock for a second, then began to kiss back, bringing my hands up to hold him. I just tried to picture it as Jaime, even though their lips felt nothing alike. Kellin ran his hands down my chest, and I pushed him away. "We have all the time in the world for that," I winked, hoping to god he wouldn't force me into something tonight. I let out a fake yawn. "I'm tired," I climbed on to the bed, letting Kellin curl into me after he shut off the lights. I sat and thought, waiting for Kellin to fall asleep.

Why was Kellin so obsessive? How come I never realised it before? What if we don't get out of this? What if Jaime hates me after this? Oh god... what if he takes what I said to heart? What if... what if he doesn't believe me, that everything I said was untrue? He could... he might... he might do something horrible... I shook those thoughts out of my head, and listened to Kellin's breathing, to see if he was asleep. His breathing had slowed quite a bit since I had started thinking, so I assumed he had fallen asleep. I was the big spoon, so it should be easy for me to get up without Kellin's notice. I took my arm from around him, shifting to sit up.

He rolled over and grabbed my arm, mumbling something. "Vic, where are you going?" He said, this time more clearly.

I placed his hand back on the bed, kissing his cheek before whispering in his ear. "I just need to go to the washroom, I'll be right back baby." I lied, hoping a tired Kellin would be too lazy to make sure that's what I actually did. I was right. I got up, walking out the door, and walking on the way to the washroom. I knew that was was also the way to the stairs, down to Jaime. I closed the door to the bathroom as I passed, just in case Kellin was awake enough to hear me. I stopped in the kitchen, which had almost no food, but I was able to grab enough to feed Jaime. He was probably starving. I also grabbed a cup of water and a straw, because I wouldn't be able to untie him without Kellin noticing the difference in the ropes.

I walked down the stairs, being careful not to trip, because I couldn't turn on the light, and even if I could I had no clue where the lightswitch was.

[Jaime]

I was still awake, thinking about what Vic had said. I had cried all that I could cry, so now I was just kind of feeling empty. I wish I wasn't tied up, because I know my blades would bring me some relief... put some emotion back into my thoughts. And I could end it all... like Vic said I should. I swear I heard a door close, and I heard shuffling in the room above me. I heard a door open and close, and someone walking down the stairs. Fuck. I pretended to be asleep, so that I didn't have to see whichever person had come to torture me with words this time. Vic had stopped Kellin from using his knife on me, but honestly, I'd rather have that happen than deal with another emotional abuse session.

The person walked up to me and... ran his hand down my cheek? I opened my eyes, wondering why they were being so soft. They hadn't said a thing, so what were they doing. They leaned down, and I felt their hair against my cheeks. Well, that tells me it's Vic at least. But what was he doing? And was Kellin soon to follow? He pressed a kiss to my forehead, then whispered "Shhhh..." He took the tape off my mouth, slowly, trying not to hurt me, but not doing a very good job. I let out a whimper, and he apologised. I just stared at him. This was the man who hated me, why was he down here? Here to emotionally abuse me some more? Lead me on, be nice to me, then crush me? Make me feel worthless again? Just fucking kill me already, if that's what they plan to do. Which I assume it is. Honestly, if it isn't, it's still going to happen though. From my own hands. "Jaime..." Vic was down on his knees, something beside him. He grabbed something, and held it up to my mouth. I smelled it, it was bread. Why was he feeding me? Maybe I can just starve to death. I refused to open for Vic. He held up a glass of something next, and it was unscented, so I assumed it was water. My mouth was so dry... but why was Vic being nice? I was tempted to take a drink, but I resisted. "Jaime... eat... drink..." I glared at Vic. "Why won't you?"

I thought for a moment about whether or not I wanted to respond. "You hate me... why are you trying to be nice?" I decided to respond, talking in a whisper.

"Jaime..." Vic set down the cup, moving closer to me, then leaning in to kiss me. I didn't let him. His lips had been all over Kellin's, why would I want to kiss those, he hated me anyways? This was obviously just a trick. Vic let out a sigh, then I heard something, like someone getting up. Vic didn't notice.

Someone was walking around upstairs, but Vic really didn't take notice to it. I don't know if my ears were just sensitive since I've been dealing with this silence and they haven't but... I nodded towards the door. "What's Kel-" I heard a door open, then someone call out Vic's name.